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1â–²: sup
2â–¼: Hello there, Strider.
3â–²: hey yourself lalonde
4â–²: so what kind of deeply passionate literary masterpieces are we penning today
5â–¼: Actually, today I've been filling out university application forms, and going over them with John.
6â–¼: Beyond that, the day has been pretty eventless.
7â–¼: How is the world of Dave Strider currently fairing?
8â–²: well you could say its not as planned out as the lalonde quadrant
9â–²: this part of the galaxy is lagging behind in that respect
10â–²: what would i be able to put down anyway
11â–²: my merits include chopping shit up into smaller pieces and rapping on the fly
12â–¼: I'm sure there's somewhere that would accept you, surely.
13â–¼: Unless, of course, you have no intention of going anyway.
14â–¼: In which case none of that matters now, does it?
15â–²: no way im pretty sure higher education is a part of the plan
16â–²: i just need to get my ass to the sketching board and develop the plan
17â–¼: Mm, that would probably be a good idea.
18â–²: so are you and egbert planning on going to the same uni or what
19â–¼: Well, if you need any help, John and I are here to help.
20â–¼: ...
21â–¼: John is there for moral support, at least.
22â–¼: Ah, I'm not quite sure yet. He seems very keen on the idea.
23â–²: thats not much of a surprise
24â–²: kid has a thing for you and your flighty broad horseshit
25â–¼: Mm, I noticed.
26â–¼: I'm just going to see which campuses accept me, and which don't,
27â–²: and hell need you to guide him in the big bad real world
28â–¼: Then I'm going to concentrate on finding an apartment nearby- I'm not entirely keen on living on campus.
29â–¼: I can't wait to get out of here.
30â–¼: Although if I have to, I will.
31â–²: you seem pretty eager to leave the nest
32â–¼: Well, I guess that's true, to some extent.
33â–¼: But could you not do the same?
34â–¼: Eager is a total understatement.
35â–²: well id go to university of houston so i could still see bro but i know i can get in tons of places that are better
36â–²: your moms gonna miss you if you make it seem like you wanna go so bad
37â–¼: Well, my advice to you is to not limit yourself by your brother.
38â–²: and this chat client is hells of laggy but we can deal
39â–¼: Regardless of where you go, you're going to be able to see him.
40â–¼: And god, it is, but yes, it will be fine.
41â–¼: ...
42â–¼: As for my mother, I am really not looking forward to telling her I plan to move out in a couple of months' time.
43â–²: try to break it gently in a nonantagonistically gentle way and not your weird brand of ironic motherdaughter interaction
44â–²: way
45â–²: not much one upping to do when youre telling your parents that you dont need em anymore
46â–¼: I... I was planning to tell her that I plan on moving out, and not to worry because I can look after myself; she made sure of that with her incessant drinking and relatively consistant neglegence caused by such.
47â–²: but you didnt get around to it until now because...??
48â–¼: Because I needed to finish highschool first.
49â–²: well obviously
50â–¼: A common courtesy to her as a mother. Watching her child grow and prepare herself for the venture out into the world; not that she paid much attention.
51â–²: at least tell me youve been involving her in all this preparation shit
52â–²: although for some reason im sure the answer is no
53â–²: bros pretty much been doing all of it for me lazy ass that i am
54â–¼: What do you mean, involving her in the preparation?
55â–¼: She's had endless chances to play the part she was given in my life for a whole nigh-on nineteen years now.
56â–²: maybe shes got some sort of secret college fund she signed up for or something
57â–²: working in the background and stuff
58â–²: im pretty sure your mom would have one like that despite your bias against her which ive never really gotten
59â–²: itd be good to ask
60â–¼: Mh, she's intent on paying for my tertiary schooling regardless.
61â–¼: I was tempted to take the most expensive courses just to show her how bad an idea that could potentially be, but then I'd have wasted a year of university doing things that didn't matter to me.
62â–²: well im going in pretty much undeclared
63â–²: like youd think id have an idea of what im gonna do but im just hoping ill find out somewhere down the line
64â–²: your mom cant have done a too shitty job raising you up if the current little rosie is anything to judge by
65â–¼: ...
66â–²: self made broad that you are
67â–¼: Ever.
68â–¼: Please don't ever call me that again.
69â–²: too late already got the fucking pen and added it to stupidnicknames.txt
70â–¼: Oh you cheeky little devil.
71â–¼: Either way, beyond schooling and the like, what have you been up to?
72â–²: you already know my mo
73â–²: just a myriad of girls and insanely fly beats and preventing world hunger
74â–²: still strifing a lot which is why stayin close to home is somewhat important
75â–¼: Well, yes, that makes sense. I can't wait to get out of the strifing cycle to be entirely honest.
76â–²: but thats your only source of interaction isnt it
77â–²: heh
78â–¼: Oh, we interact beyond that.
79â–¼: A bit.
80â–²: then things are faring better than i expected i consider this a pretty mildly interesting development
81â–¼: Oh, really? Well that's wonderful news.
82â–¼: Perhaps we could stray from the topic of the woman that claimed to have raised me?
83â–²: alright alright ill let you resign yourself to that
84â–²: im not ultra keen on leaving still
85â–²: dont tell john but i think im seriously going to miss everything
86â–²: horribly
87â–²: and i hope i dont fall out of contact with people since youre all going to go ahead and be adults and whatnot
88â–¼: Well, you shan't lose contact with me, that's for sure. And John is a bloody limpet.
89â–¼: Jade, I'm not so sure. I haven't actually heard from her in a while.
90â–¼: ...
91â–¼: And Dave, it's perfectly fine to be scared, okay?
92â–²: i guess it is
93â–²: i dont know its like i was just ten yesterday
94â–¼: Yes, I know how you feel. Time seems to have flown so fast for us.
95â–¼: But remember that. It's okay to be scared.
96â–¼: It's awfully scary growing up.
97â–²: its scary and im glad you understand
98â–²: i guess maybe i can go about becoming famous by doing something with my photography but im gonna hold you to your promises
99â–¼: There's no reason you can't try.
100â–¼: Have I seen any of your recent photography, for that matter?
101â–²: well ive been doing more serious stuff and bro got me interested in some cinematography but its best if we dont delve too deeply into that
102â–¼: Oh really?
103â–¼: I shan't ask, then.
104â–²: color me deeply grateful
105â–²: anyway i guess i should get down to business and maybe fill out some apps now that youve put that in my head
106â–²: so
107â–²: maybe well talk again soon
108â–¼: Well, alright then, Strider.
109â–¼: Let's not leave it so long between conversations this time.
110â–¼: I've got something I'd like to discuss with you next time, if you're feeling up to it then.
111â–²: well you can consider me up for anything any time you need
112â–²: thats what friends are for and all that good 90s shit
113â–¼: Hahaha, if you say so.
114â–¼: And I'd deeply appreciate it. It's been bothering me for a while.
115â–²: well if youve been stewing over it then i can hear you out now
116â–²: shrugs all around
117â–¼: ...
118â–¼: Are you sure? I don't want to bother you.
119â–²: dont start that shit now
120â–²: weve been friends for how long
121â–²: just go ahead if youve gotta uncle striders here for you
122â–¼: Hahaha, oh, alright.
123â–¼: It's just an uncomfortable topic, you see.
124â–¼: And I know you don't like it being brought up.
125â–¼: But you remember that incident that happened a couple of years ago?
126â–²: are we thinking about the same fiasco
127â–²: involving a shitty game i told you bros about and warned you etc
128â–¼: An awful videogame, a nasty patch of who-the-hell-knows, group therapy sessions trying to find answers that weren't there?
129â–¼: Jade was told it was all an overactive imagination. John and I got the bad dream speech. You got that and some drivel about drugs or something, didn't you?
130â–²: ugh yeah
131â–²: yeah i did
132â–²: but what about it??
133â–¼: Well, I was cleaning out my wardrobe for the first time in god knows how long.
134â–¼: I found all sorts of stuff, yeesh. Letters from you guys, old dusty journals with admittedly awful stories written in them, knitting I haven't seen in years...
135â–¼: But I also found a couple of disks.
136â–²: oh no
137â–²: stop right there you are not sticking that into anything
138â–²: break them now
139â–²: theres only so many times i can deal with finding my own corpses and watching my bro swim in plasma no no no
140â–¼: Dave, just hear me out.
141â–²: not if youre gonna tell me oh gosh dave im so bored lets call down the meteors again
142â–²: ...
143â–²: fine lets hear it
144â–¼: Look, as far as I understand, I'm the only one that has my disks anymore.
145â–¼: Hell, I thought my mother'd thrown them out.
146â–¼: ....
147â–¼: Trust me to go sneak them back in some foolish act of defiance, or whatever it is that happened.
148â–¼: A very large part of me wants to install it and see what, exactly, would happen.
149â–¼: But the rest is obviously telling me that is a very bad idea.
150â–¼: But just think; if something does happen, we'll know.
151â–¼: We'll know we weren't just crazy.
152â–²: look you know i dont like talking about this
153â–²: i still believe it happened and stuff they didnt brainwash me or anything
154â–²: so if you go ahead and put it in im not gonna be saying no
155â–¼: ...
156â–²: isnt it weird that something so fucking important is something we can only talk about with each other
157â–¼: Well, the game won't work with only a server disk.
158â–²: but other than that ive got nothing to talk about really
159â–¼: Or just a client disk.
160â–¼: And you have a fair, fair point.
161â–¼: .... I'm scared, Dave,
162â–²: shit why
163â–²: we got out alive and were all going to become adults and be individuals and stuff
164â–²: it should be exciting
165â–²: and we shouldnt have to look back on the game
166â–¼: .. well, no, we shouldn't.
167â–¼: And we don't.
168â–¼: ....
169â–¼: My apologies.
170â–²: dont
171â–¼: Even entertaining the thought of reinstalling that stupid disk was stupid of me.
172â–²: i mean if you want to talk about it then ill shut up and stop being a prick and listen
173â–²: im pretty much tripping down all these words sorry
174â–¼: I just. I never believed for a second it didn't happen.
175â–¼: Those ridiculous therapists were just trying to give us false reasons to hush us up.
176â–¼: They had no bloody clue.
177â–²: which mustve riled you up since you wanted to be a therapist yourself
178â–¼: I was able to push it away, though. I was able to pretend it didn't happen. I'm not sure if you did the same.
179â–¼: But when I saw those disks...
180â–¼: Yes it did, and they weren't doing a very good bloody job of it.
181â–¼: They've been bothering me since.
182â–¼: I need to know that it happened. I need to.
183â–²: rose
184â–²: it did happen ok
185â–²: we dont have to relive it to reaffirm it
186â–²: i never even bothered pretending like it didnt so you can believe that im still in trouble
187â–¼: But I don't want to put you guys through that again. Hell, I'm the only one that still has the disks!
188â–²: i just shut up about it for ages
189â–¼: And I'm scared. Too scared to do it on my own.
190â–¼: ...
191â–¼: I brought it up to John, but he just clammed up and started blabbering about bad dreams.
192â–¼: ....
193â–¼: God, I'm sorry, Dave.
194â–¼: Urgh, I shouldn't have even brought this up.
195â–²: no its nice to be able to talk about it instead of just turning it over mentally all the time
196â–²: stop your goddamn apologies
197â–²: its not like you
198â–¼: I just don't know what to do.
199â–²: ...
200â–²: well maybe you could write about it and pass it off as fiction
201â–¼: I tried that.
202â–²: almost a textbook example of get rich quick scheme there
203â–²: oh
204â–¼: Everything I managed to get on paper has been burned into my mind in some fashion or another.
205â–¼: And on a lighter note, everything that I do remember goes dark after a certain point.
206â–¼: So it wouldn't be the most accurate of accounts anyway.
207â–¼: I still have that journal, if you're interested.
208â–¼: Next time we all meet up- if it does indeed ever happen again- I could give it to you.
209â–²: alright but it better pull me in harder than your wizardslash
210â–²: that stuff had much left to desire in it
211â–²: and i guess i never really asked you what the game was like for you anyway so shit seems cool to me
212â–¼: Oh you. Your talent for making light of anything at all are brilliant for situations such as these.
213â–¼: The game was... interesting. Unpleasant.
214â–²: it was really wicked shit though
215â–²: we were all such badasses
216â–²: having powers
217â–²: im excellent at looking things the wrong way didnt you know
218â–¼: I think it's a brilliant way to look at things in hindsight.
219â–¼: We were badasses. Even if only for a mere few hours.
220â–¼: ...
221â–¼: Or days, in your case.
222â–²: it was a bit longer than that
223â–²: i went crazy with the loops and splinter timelines heh
224â–²: like balls to the damn months worth
225â–²: also means i died a lot though which was less than fly
226â–¼: Your manner of speech still manages to entertain me.
227â–¼: But yes, I can understand what you mean. Although I never had to suffer anything beyond my...
228â–¼: What did we call them- Beta selves?
229â–²: what issues forth from this keyboard is the mona lisa of linguistics
230â–¼: My Betaself suddenly ceasing to exist.
231â–²: i can imagine it was pretty unsettling
232â–²: also makes real life death seem much different
233â–¼: And the Mona Lisa of- christ, I can almost believe that.
234â–¼: How do you mean, Dave?
235â–¼: Makes it seem like nothing? Or makes it all the more... "real," if you will?
236â–²: good job hitting the nail on the head
237â–²: freud would be proud
238â–²: im both scared shitless and alpha as fuck brave these days
239â–¼: Freud was a cocaine addict.
240â–¼: And yes, I can certainly see the Alpha braveness of you. I've come to a point where I can hardly imagine anything else.
241â–¼: Scared; scared is harder to see. But it's there.
242â–¼: .... and like you already know, I'm here to talk to about it if you need it.
243â–¼: Hell, you've helped me.
244â–²: to the best of my sardonic ability i guess i have
245â–²: im just really glad to
246â–²: have you guys i guess
247â–²: best ectosis ever even if blood tests slander it falseways
248â–¼: I have to agree. Absolutely.
249â–¼: Forgive my awful sappiness; perhaps I've been speaking to John far too long.
250â–¼: But I couldn't ask for a better ectobiological brother.
251â–¼: And all three of you. There's something to life for, you know?
252â–¼: *Live.
253â–¼: Blasted keyboard.
254â–²: what typo you never typod a lalonde never typos
255â–¼: Haha, thank you for the reassurance.
256â–²: i miss john man i havent talked to him in so long
257â–¼: I imagine so. He's been very busy- he's taken up learning illusionary tricks, you know.
258â–¼: Card tricks, contact juggling, that sort of deal.
259â–¼: And he's getting good at it.
260â–¼: ....
261â–¼: I propose we organise another little one of our get togethers, perhaps.
262â–¼: I think we all need it.
263â–²: but then im gonna have to prove to him that im normal and shit
264â–²: god it sucks not knowing if your best bro still likes you???
265â–²: probably been a year since we last pestered
266â–¼: Honestly, that long? Really?
267â–¼: I speak to him rather regularly.
268â–¼: Jade is an entirely different matter.
269â–²: i still talk to harley but shes not as available now
270â–²: seeing as shes not on that island
271â–²: shes still a sweetheart and everything so dont worry
272â–²: shits sunshine regularly
273â–¼: Oh, well that's absolutely wonderful. I miss her.
274â–¼: John's... still John.
275â–¼: I'm not entirely sure there's any other way to describe him.
276â–²: a derp
277â–²: a goddamn naive innocent derp
278â–²: unless thats up for debate then welp
279â–¼: No, no, derp it is.
280â–¼: If it helps, he asks how you are rather often.
281â–¼: He went back to using ghostlyTrickster after....
282â–¼: Well, everything happened.
283â–²: ...
284â–²: goddamn why didnt i even think he would
285â–²: i deleted his old handle ages ago oh wow i am an unprecedented idiot
286â–¼: He's only just started coming on reliably and regularly over the last year and a half, though.
287â–¼: To be fair, I didn't think he would have either.
288â–¼: But I got a pester out of the blue from gT a good few months after we'd all gone home properly and settled in.
289â–¼: We talked about things, and he decided on opinions that differed to mine...
290â–¼: Then I didn't hear about him for a few more months.
291â–¼: Went on like that, but he seems okay now.
292â–¼: Maybe you should pester him some time, on that handle?
293â–²: yeah i guess i should
294â–²: ill come at him with all the olive branches
295â–²: i feel bad about ragequitting on him but seriously sburb
296â–²: i dont know i really miss being an ass to john
297â–²: he always put up with it even
298â–²: goddamn trooper
299â–¼: You were- are- his best friend. Of course he did.
300â–²: i uh hey lalonde
301â–²: i think ill try to recontact him now actually
302â–¼: Of course, Dave. I understand.
303â–²: before i lose it and go chickenshit
304â–¼: ...
305â–²: lets talk regularly again like we used to ok??
306â–¼: Thank you for talking to me about all of that stuff.
307â–¼: I'll hold off on installing anything for a while, at least.
308â–²: you better not do anything without my blessing
309â–¼: Of course, Strider. I'd really, really like that.
310â–²: but i trust you i mean damn look at you
311â–²: im proud of the fine young contributor to society you are and everything
312â–²: i mean if you wont hear it from your mom then take it from your bro
313â–²: peace
314â–²: and shit
315â–¼: ... thank you, Dave. It means a lot.
316â–¼: Good luck with contacting John again, too.
317â–²: ha yeah i really hope that goes well
318â–²: wish me luck
319â–²: except you already did wow thanks lag
320â–¼: Haha, forward thinking.
321â–²: its almost like time shenanigans all over again