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1Hello to all who can read this.
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3You may have been wondering why did i abruptly leave the server for the past 3 days. Here is what i can say.
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5Over these days. I have been contemplating to come back. But today, i am willing to come back if you guys wanted to or return to the server i feel like it. I just wanted to say that i am really sorry for all of this. I thought that if i have left, the server would just be better without me. But overtime. I think that i was wrong all along. I Thought the server would benefit a lot from my departure. Flo was right, i do need to take a break. And these 3 days were my chance to do so. But i cannot just get the server away from my mind, and my dreams for some reason. You see. The server is like home to me, everyone was really kind to each other and i really love the community there. But what happened 3 days ago just makes me wanted to regret what i have done by leaving you all.
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7You see. The main reason why i abruptly left is because i pressured myself onto doing so. I am not and will never be angry about not becoming a mod. This is all just my decision. I felt that being a community manager feels rather boring as i cannot do anything yet. I decided to leave at that point because i cant get the time to defend myself and it ended up being a heated argument. I had to say that i was planning to resign soon as some sort of insecurity/pressure trigger for me. (yes, if i messed up, i will get very insecure.) because of that, i gave into pressure and it just feeds on the negatives even more. Even to this day as im writing this. I feel really sick to my stomach. Although keep this in mind. If i have ever done something bad. I will take responsibility and always apologize and accept the punishment. But if its something that i started, i dont really want to take the blame to it. It is like bringing a toy to school, and some people copied me and eventually everyone. Which ultimately lead to us getting in trouble. As a result, i should be the one responsible for all of this because i inadvertently created the accident that i never intended to do. So this is what im supposed to tell you all but i cannot get the right time to defend myself.
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9I also had this weird feeling in the server at the time. Although that is mostly just me, though. But i think i should state this. There are times where i feel rather uncomfortable in the server. But again, that is only me. I dont know why but its just more of a hunch, right?
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11Looking back. Because of the two arguments that happened. It made me feel that i was responsible for all of the negative stuff to happen. I tried my best to not blame myself for this but the pressure just makes me want to do it. But i can't blame myself. Because its way too much for me.
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13As for this. I just wanted to apologize to those that i think i pissed them off (Such as Amanda and Matt) and to the whole mod team and the server. I do not want any of this to happen. I thought that leaving unexpectly is the right thing. I never expected you guys to be worried about this. And i did not ever think of this as i thought you guys would just ignore as i dont want this to be a big thing. But apparently it did happen to explode like this.
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15Come to think about it. It is rather immature for me to abruptly leave as i am not used to publicize my departure. But why did i have to write this? Because i still care for you guys. You guys feel like family to me.
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17You can decide if you want me to come back to the mod team or not. Regardless, it is just your choice and i will gladly accept your answers.
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19I will come back soon, if i want to. But as for now. Thank you for reading this. If you want to ask something about me, then please tell me more. If you wanted to say something if i have done something bad. Please PM me or the moderation team. I will gladly accept criticism but not in a way of confrontation.
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21Due to my absence. Please accept this MP3 file. It contains me singing "can you feel the love tonight" by elton john for you all to listen to. The reason why i had did this is because you guys missed me singing in VC weeks ago. So accept this MP3 as some sort of apology. Although i am tempted to show my real name here. But i decided to not include it. Maybe eventually? I have no idea. 
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23Link: http://picosong.com/wkwem/
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25On a side note. As much as we need to wait for a very very long time for Season 22 to come. I just hope. REALLY HOPE that my love for south park wont die soon. Its just that i hope i wont leave again due to that. You guys are really great and made me wanted to stay.
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28~ Kyrion