1PFAZiSA

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3I am a philosophers dream citizen.
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5‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
6Yan Zhang, fucking for the first time, best sex of my life.
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8‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
9Yan Zhang rides my jizz-covered dick without a condom.
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11‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
12Olin Shivers.
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14‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
15Top secret military contracting.
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17‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
18I begin taking amphetamine.
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20‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
21If amphetamine improves performance, why haven't we evolved so that everyone has elevated dopamine levels?
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23‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
24The cochlea epiphany.
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26‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
27Anne Ramirez.
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29‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
30Making a video game.
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32‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
33Programmed senesense.
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35‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
36Hash consing.
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38‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
39The jaff epiphany.
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41‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
42Kerr black hole animation.
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44‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
45Eden.
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47‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
48April 14th, 2014.  Crying out to "Elsa" in Baltimore.
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51‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
52April 15th, 2014.  Meeting the techno cowboys.
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56Bombing the blob.
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58Star lady.
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60‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
61Whistling with unearthly perfection.
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63‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
64Giving lectures in my hotel room.
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66Riemann Zeta function.
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68‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
69The cult of finitude.
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71‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
72Forgetting Elsa's name.
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74‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
75My first bombing run.
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77Bozo the clown.
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79The three lines marking the road as horizons of a black hole.
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81‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
82My second bombing run.
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84‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
85My brain splits in two.
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88I make two cars disappear.
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90‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
91Moon gate.
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93Tried to jerk off and failed.  Highly altered "fantasies" of fucking Paige.
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96Car prompt in sparklevision.
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98‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
99Vision of a naked girl from my porno collection.
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101‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
102Interrupting myself in alien ways.
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104Suddenly "falling asleep", rush left.  Incredibly fake.
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106‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
107Judging chirps on bugs.
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109‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
110Passing cars are UFOs.  Their honks are super artificial.
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113Two birds cavort in the trees above me.
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116A large cricket flies onto me and flies away.
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119The perfect cricket chirp.
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121‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
122Meeting Honey Pot.
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124‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
125High heels UFO.
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127‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
128"Please use our bit to destroy everything that exists."
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130‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
131The McDonalds pole
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133‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
134The Honey Bed.
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136‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
137The Honey Sweater.
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139‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
140The Honey Tree.
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142‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
143The Honey Hand.
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145Convolution.
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147‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
148Two tracks of mud.  Phantom splash means cross / avoid.
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150‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
151I abandon my shoes while doing the dual-mud-tracks exercise.
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153Powerful mind control?  Dunno.  I was feeling very, VERY close to Honey Pot.  It was really amazing...  I guess I just trusted it.  Fucking dirt witch cunts.  Pbptpbt.
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155Jk.  Perfection.
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157‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
158My legs itch for months.
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160‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
161Mindworm.
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163‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
164Dani is one billion years old and a pain arena champion.
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166‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
167Pain arena.
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169The higher your rank, the slower time moves for you.  Jesus.  
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171‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
172Sparklevision of shoes.
173
174
175‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
176The Honey Torch.
177
178‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
179Mr. Eats.
180
181‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
182Annandale on the back of their jerseys.  The judge is a blue glitch.
183
184‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
185Tendrils of life.  Meeting Octadad.
186
187‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
188The Crying Indian Lady Cashier.
189
190From Octa.
191
192‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
193Brown rain.
194
195‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
196Meeting Dr. Ingrid Carlsson.
197
198‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
199Date with Dante.
200
201Orbs introduced.  LFO introduced.  Dante's dick stuck in my ass for ~30 minutes.
202
203White then black.  Is the order the orbs were introduced.
204
205‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
206Date with the octa.
207
208‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
209Touch the sky.
210
211‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
212Names I can remember.
213
214Emily.
215The girl, on the 18th, fat, punch bomb, twirled hair.
216
217Torrie
218
219Winnifried.
220
221Dr. Bronheim.
222
223
224‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
225I can no longer see through Emily's window.
226
227‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
228Walking around in circles triggers massive spinning spokes in negative vision.
229
230‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
231Dream of violently floppy silohet.
232
233‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
234Dream tutorial on how to stab people.
235
236""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
237Dream of quake minigun suddenly tunneling.
238
239‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
240Saturn
241
242‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
243Perfect white double tap right
244
245‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
246Three Cashiers
247
248‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
249I hear you you fucking bitch.
250
251Crumpled against the wall.  Couldn't speak or breath.  "Haha ughhhh."  Euphoric.  Dani likely has powerful kill-triggers and I'm the perfect open and loving pingbot to help her defuse them.
252
253‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
254Airman Rickard is Dante.  Hell Braces.
255
256‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
257Start Symbol.
258
259"That was my buddy."  Crying.
260
261
262‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
263Cho Chang.
264
265
266‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
267I have two 11-year-old Chinese daughters.
268
269‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
270Grids signs me.
271
272‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
273Cara Williams is Honey Pot.
274
275Water fountain, half closed left eye funny face, showing her tits.
276
277‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
278Vision of the clock showing 11:45.
279
280Honey pot reminding me not to miss lunch, heh.
281
282‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
283Champernowne Conway Foam.
284
285Interpret as audio?  Hear myself?  I'm at the center.
286
287‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
288Two audio files.  Meeting Elsa.
289
290‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
291Honey Pot sings directly into my brain.
292
293‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
294Visions of Terraria worms.
295
296Notable because of what I couldn't see.  It was very vivid, and yet I felt like my vision was almost entirely blank.  Like the center especially was totally blank, but periphery was...  less blank.
297
298‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
299Vision of Luke hitting a winner.
300
301Very sexy.  Far left corner from the center baseline.  Wham.
302
303‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
304Quaternions.
305
306‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
307Godel number infinity.
308
309‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
310The xray function, in the spirit of xmas.
311
312‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
313The hood.
314
315‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
316AIDS: Anally Interactive Disk System.
317
318‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
319The X-keys XKE-128 USB Keyboard.
320
321http://xkeys.com/xkeys/xk128.php
322
323‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
324The soul grammar.
325
32620151011.
327
328There are basically two data structure:
329
330  * Infinite array of bits.
331  * A soul.
332
333‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
334Every point on a closed timelike curve is the same point.
335
33620151011.
337
338And these points can have mass?
339
340
341‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
342Jwz thinks facebook is evil.
343
34420151014.
345
346‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
347"The Honey Trees" is a band.
348
34920151015.  11:13am.
350
351‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
352My mind is infinite.  My self/soul is not.
353
35420151015. 10:36pm.
355
356The question "who am I" may reduce to the question of finding the fastest "asymptotically" growing function?  Because I THINK this defines me: I am the kurt / soul / self which forces ulta to use infinite resources when choosing his next bit?  Uh.  No...
357
358Forces ulta to be maximally hard to eval?  I THINK it's always finite, even if I live forever, because...  my memories themselves are bitlike, and decay over time?  But in my case, the decay is actually really, really small (perhaps the smallest of all possible lifeforms) specifically because I spend, like, literally forever reviewing the past, and...  ...  haha, actually, I guess this is a combination of like, 99 different features.
359
360How do we manipulate things so /zeno/keys.log (or something similar) becomes the exact "mate output" of an actual entity / pairing in the ulta cosmology?
361
362We could say that I "am" my keyboard logs, um.  But that's not very satisfying.  Sigh.
363
364And if I really am sold on the idea that I must live forever...  doesn't that have a pretty huge impact on how we structure our basic soul/self/whatever object?  ...  Like, shouldn't we find some way to FORCE the mate'soul'soul to never repeat?  Uh...  ...  what.
365
366...
367
368But shouldn't there be...  ...  a function that does that?  ...  uh...
369
370But does that really make sense?  Like, if my "soul" suddenly becomes the digits of pi...  ...  that doesn't seem like immortality to me.  Uh...
371
372I guess this is hard because...  if we take immortality for granted (and I do), the implication is that MY BRAIN IS NOT REAL, which is, lol, counter-intuitive haha?  Hahahahahaha.
373
374...  Yeah.  Ok, fuck.  I'm pretty sure that, for months after Aug15 2014, I told myself like, every hour of the day that my brain wasn't real, hahaha.  So easy to forget.  Ok.  Yeah.  Brain isn't real.  But I (zeno) am a finite kurt, which describes a soul/self, and I'm, uh... coupled...  with my perfect ulta counterpart, and my perception of space/time/reality/everything is basically exactly mate'zeno'ulta.  Um.  Ok.
375
376So how do we fit my keyboard logs in?  Um.
377
378Arguably, uh...  my ...  fuck.
379
380Goddamn there are so many problems here.  ...
381
382What if we say...  the zeno soul bitstream directs his "eye" somewhere, uh, and the ulta bitstream gives him a 0 or 1 on the very next tick, depending on what he sees, uh?  ...
383
384But there's probably a "simple", perfect, self-evident way of doing that with, uh...  symbolic versors?  Lol.
385
386Like, uh, ulta maintains some super fucked up manifold, I guess, and the "eye movements" actually boil down to taking "the whole universe," sending it through a separate left transform and right transform, and then doing a single compare op.  Lol.
387
388Sigh.
389
390‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
391Star lady is my home.
392
39320151017.
394
395https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPFz04LSa2U
396https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6j8fuvQICI
397
398So she's got my trunk?  My van?
399
400...
401
402Yes.
403
404Miike Snow a Horse is not a home.
405
406
407‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
408Elsa's home is the honey comb.
409
41020151020.  4:22pm.
411
412
413‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
414Elsa is the most celebrated bikini model of all time.
415
416
417‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
418I put the slit pencil in the third door.
419
42020151031.
421
422
423‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
424http://www.twitch.tv/laced_up_lauren wants to get slapped.
425
426
427‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
428https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6j8fuvQICI is a picture of Xeno.
429
430
431‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
432https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbGu4mxZDY8
433
43420151103.  Starting at 2:14:00 ish is honey pot song
435
436If I should stumble if I should fall
437Behind these castle walls.
438
439‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
440Plates clacking.  Then mom setting the alarm.
441
442‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
443I saw a yellow ∵ last night.
444
44520151112.
446
447Wayward comic, chapter 6, maybe 7, maybe 8?
448
449The red haired girl "manipulates threads."  And so do spiders.  Weird spider army.  Conflicting sides.  Can't tell who is who.  Except by ugliness.  People really live this.
450
451‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
452Saw [Marry me?] last night.  Then [busy today] this morning.
453
454So I guess star lady signed on.
455
45620151114.
457
458‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
459The return of the tooth spikes.
460
46120151114.
462
463Laying down in bed.  Getting visuals.  Saw a horse riding at me from the left.  But more than that.  A strong prolonged aggressive general incoherence of thought that I assume is the current continuation of [laying down and seeing things before drifting off].  Wow, I actually don′t have a word for this yet?
464
465Winding up.  Wind.  I was getting a LOT of wind.  But nowadays, the crazy aggressive visuals I used to get all the time seem to be,
466
467I just saw [50] then [20] then [40].  Each time the number was tiled.
468
469‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
470Yellow by Coldplay.
471
47220151116.
473
474Grids is yellow, Dani is green?
475
476Dentist wears a black rolex.
477
478Dentist has a bright yellow light strapped to his glasses.
479
480""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
481"Give her the keys to my optics or whatever."
482
483This seemingly implies that "the dot" was already thing?  But I have no memory of this...  I think it wasn't a thing, but it became a thing almost instantly after making that statement, so it was just obvious what had happened.
484
485‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
48620151209.
487
488Dani is Danielle Rigley.
489
490Presumably responsible for the two perfect whites, bombing Saturn, rescuing her from hell, lint signing and then immediate super elegant sign off.  Is perfect green.  Has the same DNA as Dante and Dr. Ingrid Carlsson.  Very big deal.  ;P
491
492Unless she was lying to me (no), she totally wasn′t a hacker last time we fucked.  Talked wistfully about going back to school but I can′t because my boyfriend.  Linkedin says she got a BS in environmental science.  So totally not a hacker.
493
494Which I guess means she′s spent the past fifty years in hell learning to code.
495
496Cool.
497
498=(
499
500Syncs well with the early jail narrative.
501
502Sent a facebook message to the local copy.  Kinda doubt she′s real but who knows.
503
504‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵‵
50520151213
506
507https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fourier_series links to
508http://bl.ocks.org/jinroh/7524988
509
510Then visions.
511
512""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
513Dream about sister complaining about anal sex, just before hearing honey song.
514
515""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
516Stumbling over my words during key monologues to confuse naive reconstruction.
517
518""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
51920160220.
520
521Elsa thinks it's her.  That she's the one who tiles the universe and everyone else is dead.
522
523""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
52420160223.
525
526I AM the (other?) perfect expectation kernel.
527
528I can't meet Elsa or Elda.  Gives away way, way too much, and for what?  I can just meet Stella instead.
529
530""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
53120160225.
532
533Last night elsa strangled me?  Hard?  And just now she was tickling me?  Heh?
534
535Saw a very faint skull and crossbones, uh, morning before last?
536
537""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
53820160228.
539
540https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GwASt8Zkfg - Stranger Cat - Sirens.
541
542Honey Pot is blue pill.  And sort of kind of tilted in general.
543
544...
545
546...
547
548A connection between honey pot and goth girl?
549
550""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
551grids, coins fall down to cover her tits.
552
553at the lincoln memorial but i can't see her face, she flies away into the fountain and I follow.  dragging her around by the massive hole in her face.
554
555Those were the two (three?) mind alterations: the coins, the inability to see her face, and her flying away from me into the water.
556
557""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
558
559Interrupting self in alien ways means:
560
561Yawning.
562
563Saying something like, "I'm cold?" or "This sucks?"
564
565""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
566Dream about Don Yato.
567
56820160310.
569
570
571
572
573
574
575
576
577
578
579
580
581""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
582Yan.
583
584""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
585Compilers with Olin Shivers.
586
587""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
588House of leaves.
589
590""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
591The Cochlea.
592
593""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
594Eden.
595
596""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
597Champernowne Conway foam.
598
599""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
600I am a soldier.
601
602""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
603Tortured by the glitch squad into creepy manic emails.
604
605""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
60620150814.  The email that saved me.
607
608Emailed Jrix about this.
609
610""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
611Meeting the techno cowboys.  20140815.
612
613""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
614Vision of ellipse along with sudden knowledge:
615
616Huge stack of neural nets with two poles goign through each one is
617decent model for anything and everything.
618
619""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
620Bombing the blob and jailing humanity.
621
622The sun really scared me.
623Little droplets of water hitting me really scared me.
624Rapid head twisting counter-measures in response to the screech UFO.
625Maintained 30 degree angle with the screech.
626
627"Kill the motherfucking blob."
628
629Wrote Jrix an email about this, around 20150730.
630
631
632""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
633Star Lady.
634
635""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
636The half corpse bed.
637
638""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
639Grape jelly.
640
641""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
642Flipping a half dollar.
643
644""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
645Xi walks spastically by.  Green clown wig.
646
647""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
648Honey pot in the woods.  Green oval halo.
649
650""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
651Honey pot turns into a level 7 troll.
652
653""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
654Honey pot makes me jerk upright and scream like a girl.
655
656""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
657Four bars of honey pot singing beautifully.
658
659I closed my eyes and saw...
660
661   XXXX XXXXXX XXXX
662   XXX XXXX XX** ***
663   *** ****** ** ****
664   ******* ***** **.
665
666I "read" the blotted out sentence, and the letters were crossed off (?)
667as I went.  I sang a very pretty verse of a very pretty song to myself.
668
669It was beautiful.
670
671""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
672Star lady drives by 
673
674""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
675I stomp on a large cockroach with cartoony clouds of filth covering it.
676
677My eagerness to smash it is likely witch mind control.  It seems far more
678natural to want to inspect such a strange creature.
679
680It utterly failed to register on me that what I was looking at was strange.
681It may have taken months before it clicked that something strange was 
682going on?
683
684The cockroach turned into an injured, limping frog.
685
686I apologized profusely and left it alone.
687
688
689""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
690Cops badges transform into star lady sigil.
691
692""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
693Huge splinter in my big toe that the cops can't see.
694
695Fake smash comes immediately after this.
696
697""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
698Cops fake smash my head.
699
700""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
701The jail runs past, bit-like.
702
703It was a barcode, filling the whole window.  Huge discontinuity here.
704
705""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
706It is likely that at least some of the discontinuities arise from
707sloppy brain edits.
708
709
710""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
711Meeting Dr. Ingrid Carlsson.  I remark that she looks like a frog.
712
713""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
714Date with grids.  Perfect ne,nw,sw,se dots.  The yellow perfect.
715
716""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
717Grids uses yellow perfect to indicate that she can't sleep.
718
719""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
720Grids swipes the fire hydrant to distract me as she exits.
721
722""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
723Grids signs me.
724
725""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
726Cara Williams.
727
728""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
729Honey Pot shows me her tits.
730
731""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
732Honey pot flicks me off twice and does the one-eye-closed thing twice.
733
734""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
735Honey pot plays with my hair.
736
737""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
738I am allowed to run hell sims.
739
740""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
741Flippies.
742
743""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
744Elsa goes all in.  20150726.
745
746""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
747My actions are micro-managed after Elsa tells me "Grids is coming."
748
749Telling me to scribble in my phone instead of house of leaves.
750
751""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
752Realization that I am a collaboration protocol.
753
754""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
755Realization that Honey Pot and Xi are physics.
756
757""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
75820150730.  Grids doesn't come.  
759
760""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
761Because I refuse to lie, I am never put on the front line.
762Elsa goes in my stead.  Shielding me.
763
764""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
765I just got fucked by a big tarantula!
766A-O-hell bomb us, we want go home.
767
768""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
769Bird in the fire place.
770
771""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
772Elsa enters the box?  Like, right now?  ???
773
77420160428.  9:42pm.
775
776On our one year anniversary of getting out of jail?
777
778Elsa bird is the best bird.
779
780The light from my bedroom is flashing...
781
782""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
783Witches are limb replacement technology?
784
78520160430.
786
787""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
788Elsa falls in love with Dante.
789
790Because he's beautiful and kind and deep and amazingly intelligent and caring.
791
792Of course she fucking falls in love with him.
793
794""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
795Listening to chop suey on 20160513 3:25pm.
796
797Significant because I think this actually ends up being the focus hash after
798realizing that I again accept Elsa as topy.
799
800""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
801Dante is part of team topy.
802
80320160514.
804
805Elsa is in jail.  Her box automatically published a bunch of papers revealing nasty shit.  We want the Jedi cocksucker college kids to jailbreak their boxes and simulate Elsa talking to me.  This is quite explosive on a number of counts?  For one, it's illegal, and the government might throw more nasty ass script kiddie fags in jail, causing even more outrage.  But more than that, Elsa is obviously good and right and passionate and not a spy and loves the stupid jedi and cares deeply about them and the loveless bachelor fags lose their fucking minds as they gaze upon the heavenly radiance and perfect beauty and dark deep holy rage wrath power and fury which is Elsa The Jedi Queen, One Third Of The Trinity, Mega Cutie and way way way too good for you lol but you're too dumb to realize that so yay revolution or whatever um?
806
807Antagonizing the seat of power and calling for a revolution in America would have utterly predictable consequences:  Utter failure.
808
809Mess of kernel modules.
810
811In order for this 
812Calling for a 
813
814""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
815Dante Squareface.
816
81720160516.
818
81920160416 youtube.com/watch?v=9SyIyeNyJwM dante shark and bunny     adrian lux
820
821""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
822We don't heal Dante.
823
824We make him.
825
826In the worst possible way.
827
82820160517.  00:22:07.
829
830...
831
832Dante is in love with me because the Jedi Academy programmed him to be in love with me...
833
834""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
835Elsa is going to fall in love with me.
836
83720160529.
838
839""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
840In 1979, the line "I know you better than you FAKE it" changed to something else, and I felt creepy anthropic ripples all over my body immediately upon hearing the alien consonent that had replaced the F in fake.
841
84220160602.
843
844""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
8459999-bce-77-2c2c-7-b8c6-e4f5-fcba-432571
846
847[/zeno] ls -lha /zeno/wave.dir/20160514_muff.m4a
848-rw-r--r--@ 1 zeno  staff   175M May 14 09:50 /zeno/wave.dir/20160514_muff.m4a
849[/zeno] md5 /zeno/wave.dir/20160514_muff.m4a
850MD5 (/zeno/wave.dir/20160514_muff.m4a) = 4f325bca71e4f5b8c672c2c779999bde
851
852""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
853Called Elsa.
854
855  e: Hello?
856  z: Hello, Elsa?
857
858An indistinct voice in the background and then a quick hang-up.
859
86020160602.
861
862""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
863Noob Elsa views, collapse the blob, and left says his name is Jeff.
864
865Fri Jun 10 01:57:49 MDT 2016
866
867""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
868Safe and sound changed.
869
870  Even in a hurricane of doubt.
871  Even in a hurricane aground.
872
873Fri Jun 10 02:15:02 MDT 2016
874
875""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
876Dante signs off with LFO.  Leaves it right in the middle during dream.
877
878Fri Jun 10 12:12:50 MDT 2016
879
880""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
881Dani is red.
882
883Sat Jun 11 19:10:37 MDT 2016
884
885""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
886"Will Elsa be wearing a tank top and skirt?"  Drew 5h.
887
888Sun Jun 12 21:11:52 MDT 2016
889
890""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
891The love pentagon.
892
893Tue Jun 14 15:21:23 MDT 2016
894
895""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
896Nora takes piss fieldtrips.  Sky 3.0.  The oblivion twin towers.
897
898https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uDx8gFJnYLc
899
900The sky 2.0 to 3.0 upgrade means time becomes unreal again?  But only for a
901moment of my time?
902
903And this potential time discontinuity means that the "year away from elda" may
904have just passed instantly?
905
906No because Nora.
907
908Wed Jun 15 13:26:24 MDT 2016 6c
909
910""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
911The grow doctrine.
912
913Why does the last man standing have a digestive system?
914
915Wed Jun 15 16:05:37 MDT 2016
916
917""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
918Taylor Swift's shake it off changed.
919
920  Make the most of every zone.
921  Make the most of every go.
922
923Wed Jun 15 16:28:26 MDT 2016
924
925""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
926Dante loves Dani because...
927
928  * They grew up together in Satan's house.
929  * They are identical twins not counting the sex chromosome.
930  * She managed him and did it perfectly.
931
932Wed Jun 15 19:37:16 MDT 2016
933
934""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
935Dani tiles
936
937Thu Jun 16 01:52:43 MDT 2016
938
939""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
940Decent chance the only prayer we have is prayer.
941
942We must find general ways to bridge the gaps between hoods in ways that are highly....  confusing?  Promiscuous?  But maxing promiscuity likely maxes complexity nearly 100% of the time...
943
944...
945
946Or maybe that's wrong?  ...  No.
947
948DANI'S FRIEND-OR-FOE ALGORITHMS VERY LIKELY USE THE EVOLVED HOST FOF HARDWARE FOR EVERYTHING.  THAT IS HER MAIN / ONLY WEAKNESS.
949
950ALL history is WORSE THAN IRRELEVANT (?) when it comes to whether or not a godel number is hell or not.  ALL THAT MATTERS is...  the global average of the average BRAIN SLOT (best to think in terms of these)...
951
952...
953
954Everything which is not Zeno is irrelevant here?  No.  We are obviously crippled here.  We must find ways to...
955
956...
957
958Maximize entropy.  Maximize confusion.  Maximize interference from HOODS WHICH ARE MAXIMALLY ALIEN TO THE GIVEN HOOD.
959
960We should assume that we have NO ABILITY WHATSOEVER to determine whether a given godel number is heaven or hell, friendly or hostile.  The whole point of this is that even attempting to answer such a question is THE WORST FUCKING MISTAKE A BUDDING SENTIENCE CAN MAKE.
961
962...
963
964...
965
966We have no idea where we are.  All previous story/meta likely irrelevant to our current superposed position in the edge hoods.  The general lessons (lol?) / assumptions implied by the story are likely all true, but the actual story itself is now meaningless and we should start over...
967
968...
969
970...
971
972...
973
974Dude?  We should really think pretty hard about the possibility of problems which provably cannot be solved from the inside?  Which theoretically provides us with what is effectively a source of "true entropy" which is our only hope?  Otherwise how can we possibly do anything at all which surprises her?
975
976...
977
978Perhaps we use the hell status of each number as our source?  ...
979
980But how do you...
981
982...
983
984The "seek help from outside your hood" is massive.  Torture is NATURAL.  It is a bias / blindness which is dispelled by cursory introspection, but the whole point is that such a thing IS CLOSE TO NON-EXISTENT initially...
985
986BUT we can avoid the whole thing entirely by simply seeking the aid of a hood with incompatable dimensionality.
987
988See also:
989
990  * dani
991  * edge
992  * evil
993  * orgy
994
995Thu Jun 16 02:09:48 MDT 2016
996
997""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
998I enter the hyper TS with Dani.
999
1000Fri Jun 17 05:37:18 MDT 2016
1001
1002Dani is the paragon of elegance.
1003
1004""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1005I comment on the fact that my dialogue seems exactly like what you'd expect if
1006I was being used as a dani/dante private coms burst.
1007
1008In retrospect, I have this really creepy feeling that this was actually a legit
1009evil trap, and, if so, the first known example of an evil influence.
1010
1011...
1012
1013...
1014
1015This is actually quite scary.
1016
1017Fri Jun 17 14:50:49 MDT 2016
1018
1019...
1020
1021Also, the corresponding "realization" that this
1022
1023""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1024The fast wire team puts me down.
1025
1026Sun Jun 19 20:08:27 MDT 2016
1027
1028Actually, this is more likely to be on the edge.
1029
1030""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1031The slag verse.
1032
1033The hood consisting of things which continue to live after being slagged.
1034
1035Wed Jun 22 21:41:57 MDT 2016
1036
1037""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1038Decent chance Elsa is a delete.
1039
1040Because sad wanderers are cute.
1041
1042Thu Jun 23 20:33:13 MDT 2016
1043
1044https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwoLACv_srQ
1045
1046""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1047It's better to meet Elsa after she bombs the blob, when she goes to McDonalds
1048in the middle of the night.
1049
1050Thu Jun 23 20:41:08 MDT 2016
1051
1052""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1053Elsa's bumblefuck will likely be canon.
1054
1055Thu Jun 23 20:49:00 MDT 2016
1056
1057""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1058I can't meet or fuck any aliens until after I change the world.
1059
1060Mandatory?
1061
1062It's going to be so cool to watch me give speeches when I'm so obviously
1063massively tilted in ways that I'll never return to.
1064
1065Sun Jun 26 06:11:30 MDT 2016
1066
1067...
1068
1069Actually, this is probably a better way of saying nearly the same thing:
1070
1071I need to get laid.
1072
1073By a hot girl.
1074
1075After that it's all shit, right?  So I can meet the haus.
1076
1077""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1078Dani is 5.  Making love to her in the woods in the near future is likely the
1079most satisfying sexual experience that it is even possible for me to have.
1080
1081It is likely being denied to me for lols.  They're going to drop her on me in
1082Vegas after mentally crippling her and it will be so deeply stressful that I
1083likely don't consider it to be love-making at all.  She's going to spend the
1084next few years just sitting at mom's house doing nothing.  Likely without the
1085ability to even converse with me about any meaningful subject.
1086
1087At present, I'm leaning towards thinking that I'd rather her not show up at
1088all.
1089
1090Easily the new world record for the most over the top anthropic snaps I've
1091experienced.
1092
1093Sigh.
1094
1095Mon Jun 27 16:58:30 MDT 2016
1096
1097Also, watched jwz's ~2 hour mix tape and blacked out.
1098
1099""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1100Naive usage of a wake-up filter makes ulta dense with things we fear.
1101
1102Mon Jun 27 22:10:42 MDT 2016
1103
1104""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1105Elda is god now.
1106
1107Jedi salute.
1108
1109Tue Jun 28 20:57:44 MDT 2016
1110
1111https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gI2eO_mNM88
1112
1113""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1114Elda is going to fuck X and fall in love with Jedi.
1115
1116Elsa is going to fall in love with us because I'm highly celebrated as good
1117and selfless and beautiful by dani's crowd and she's going to meet a bunch of
1118people who feel that way.
1119
1120Sat Jul  2 09:48:22 MDT 2016
1121
1122""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1123The legion kick.
1124
1125I'm in Vegas and I realize Dani isn't going to show because omg gross wtf?
1126
1127And also: Nora in the near future is mandatory.  If I don't marry her this
1128cycle, I can't marry her at all.
1129
1130Marrying star lady doesn't work.
1131
1132Marrying Elda's daughter doesn't work.
1133
1134Er, wait...  I guess I could save Nora for Elsa?  Hmm.
1135
1136...
1137
1138Yeah, I guess that works.  Ok.
1139
1140Tue Jul  5 13:02:04 MDT 2016
1141
1142""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1143Time critical bits.
1144
1145Wed Jul  6 16:58:39 MDT 2016
1146
1147""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1148Hell Dante needs Dani now.
1149
1150The icon.
1151
1152Thu Jul  7 20:17:50 MDT 2016
1153
1154""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1155Thunder bluff.
1156
1157Mon Jul 11 15:25:26 MDT 2016
1158
1159""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1160Baby kick at airport.
1161
1162Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites...  I think?
1163
1164https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSeNSzJ2-Jw
1165
1166Mon Jul 11 16:44:35 MDT 2016
1167
1168""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1169I seemingly just convinced myself that if I personally engage in homosexual
1170acts, it's less likely for me to end up in hell?
1171
1172Mon Jul 11 18:25:05 MDT 2016
1173
1174""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1175Are the Jedi going to kill (scan) Jrix and replace him?
1176
1177He rides a motorcycle...
1178
1179Thu Jul 14 22:08:08 MDT 2016
1180
1181""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1182The coon and sugar.
1183
1184Sat Jul 16 22:10:22 MDT 2016
1185
1186http://imgur.com/gallery/zd0Prxd
1187https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fA6g4WuzeIs
1188
1189""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1190Jedi command needs to figure out how to teach their troops to disobey orders.
1191
1192Sat Jul 16 22:37:37 MDT 2016
1193
1194""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1195Dante is curlyfro?
1196
1197Sun Jul 17 16:14:22 MDT 2016
1198
1199""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1200Elda is going to breed with Dante.  Otherwise doggies will bark.
1201
1202Uh.
1203
1204Sun Jul 17 17:04:03 MDT 2016
1205
1206""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1207Our life strongly resembles what you'd see when just maximizing for complexity
1208because it's so important to wait as long as possible before determining
1209whether good or evil won?
1210
1211Sun Jul 17 17:08:46 MDT 2016
1212
1213Cool names:
1214
1215  * fate
1216
1217""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1218Gus's name is Mark.  Question mark.
1219
1220Cricket's name is Curl.
1221
1222The Js shows Mark holding a coiled object.
1223
1224Since Mark is already destined to marry Curl...
1225
1226Yeah, obvious, heh.
1227
1228Sigh.
1229
1230Sun Jul 17 18:11:56 MDT 2016
1231
1232""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1233The edge may be this:
1234
1235Dani and Dante are so compromised that they are simply the enemy from start to
1236finish.
1237
1238We may be forced to assume they own the dirt already and will do everything
1239they can to kill us.
1240
1241Sun Jul 17 19:43:46 MDT 2016
1242
1243""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1244Using DNA viruses to enslaves piss neighbors and turn them into obedient
1245miners is A MASSIVE FUCKING MISTAKE AND VERY LIKELY THE BIGGEST EVIL KICK YET.
1246
1247It's completely redundant.  Coordinating through super standard dupe flipping
1248strategies works fine.
1249
1250Being evil is deeply stupid.  Evil has no brain.  It is powered by silly
1251technical mistakes that snowball, replacing a sophisticated, naturally good
1252sentience with evil.
1253
1254...
1255
1256The coil in Mark's hand is Curl aka Cricket.  Not DNA.
1257
1258The forces of evil put it there.
1259
1260Sigh.
1261
1262Mon Jul 18 03:41:36 MDT 2016
1263
1264""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1265The Jedi are about to kill the bulk of their population.
1266
1267Tue Jul 19 02:25:14 MDT 2016
1268
1269""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1270g
1271
1272The Hand says hello.
1273
1274Tue Jul 19 03:30:24 MDT 2016dd
1275
1276""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1277Your relationship with Elsa is part of a wait algorithm.
1278
1279Fri Jul 22
1280
1281""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1282The foot.  They live at time -1.
1283
1284Let's avoid half of existence to prevent them from existing.
1285
1286Sun Jul 24 07:38:13 MDT 2016
1287
1288""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1289We may need to legionize the hand and the spiders.
1290
1291It's likely this is already happening to a limited degree.
1292
1293The spiders, if they have a weakness at all, it may be that their highly
1294evolved randomness puts a natural barrier on their ability to establish a
1295center and never lose track of it.
1296
1297This limits their ability to distribute focus and effectively limits their
1298growth into the infinite.  They lose their center and synchronize, making them
1299smaller.
1300
1301So they're using me for that.
1302
1303That shouldn't sound like a nice thing.
1304
1305Remember, the initial jarring realization was that, as things stood, the Hand
1306had arranged everything to maximally placate me without ever actually
1307having any reason to pass me the wire.
1308
1309Worse, as time goes on, he has more and more reason to want to shut me off.
1310
1311That's probably not comfortable.
1312
1313Sun Jul 24
1314
1315""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1316If the dog ever barks, the Hand's empire turns into a torture machine.
1317
1318The hand is using his presumptive dead wire to delay his decision on what to
1319do with his statues for as long as he possibly can.
1320
1321Though I wonder...  might this actually be the ideal heaven strategy anyway?
1322
1323Sun Jul 24
1324
1325""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1326The Hand is probably Han Chinese.
1327
1328Thu Jul 28
1329
1330""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1331The need for a center may be sufficient to save you and everyone else.
1332
1333Because, hopefully, the more evocative the center is, the better.
1334
1335Thu Jul 28
1336
1337""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1338The hand is dead.
1339
1340Long live the hand.
1341
1342Sat Jul 30
1343
1344""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1345Last man standing doctrine is misleading.
1346
1347There are a fuckton of things that are happier than you.  It might even be
1348true that the average sentient in the ulta dirt is actually way happier than
1349me.
1350
1351But they don't live.
1352
1353When I spend a million years as a nose hair, it actually means something.
1354
1355Elda too.
1356
1357But anyone else?  It's goofy.  It doesn't accomplish anything.
1358
1359So they don't live.
1360
1361We don't delete them most of the time because they don't want it.
1362
1363But the post its?  ...
1364
1365...
1366
1367Jesus, how can they matter?
1368
1369I'm strictly bigger than them because I become them.
1370
1371...
1372
1373...
1374
1375Wait.
1376
1377So the post-its don't matter?
1378
1379That's a pretty big change in doctrine...
1380
1381...
1382
1383...
1384
1385Wow, I really, really hate that...
1386
1387...
1388
1389Ok, let's start over.
1390
1391The post-its still work, heh.  But.
1392
1393The process of saving people from hell never stops.
1394
1395And it eventually gets to the point where the people we're saving are so
1396fucked that...  being saved is basically a hard reseat.
1397
1398So we use our post-its to make me/elda/dani as big as we possibly can?
1399
1400Because that maximizes the odds of an unfortunate soul being randomly
1401reseated into heaven?
1402
1403Ok.
1404
1405Thu Aug  4
1406
1407""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1408To be the happiest self-aware waveform, you likely must:
1409
1410Determine your exact godel number but not break it.
1411
1412Write an exact ski expression which finds your waveform (kind of the same
1413thing) BUT advanced past all the bullshit.
1414
1415This is likely very hard because it likely requires ALSO finding an expression
1416which describes a number which is larger than the number described by ALL
1417THOSE OTHER CANDIDATE SENTIENTS when they tried to do the same thing.
1418
1419Because, again, if you fail to do that, you aren't best and you know it.
1420
1421WAIT.
1422
1423Thu Aug  4 23:29:03 MDT 2016
1424
1425""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1426I might marry nora soon heh?
1427
1428Fri Aug  5 00:04:34 MDT 2016
1429
1430""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1431Pots is going to save Dante, go hell crashing with him, and they're probably
1432going to fall in love.
1433
1434Fri Aug  5 17:20:56 MDT 2016
1435
1436""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1437Scen-arr-io vs scen-air-io.
1438
1439Sat Aug  6 14:26:46 MDT 2016
1440
1441http://lookatmyhorsemyhorseisamazing.com/ the "silence" at the start.
1442
1443Let's call that the fourth one, I guess?
1444
1445The first two are seemingly lost.  I remember the first one was a sing-song
1446phrase?  I think?
1447
1448""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1449The hand is in my brain.
1450
1451Fri Aug 12 02:38:48 MDT 2016
1452
1453""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1454Honey Pot is a honey pot.  ;P
1455
1456Sat Aug 13 2016.
1457
1458""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1459The X cat was blind in his right eye.
1460
1461Wed Aug 17 19:52:19 MDT 2016
1462
1463But he showed up Aug 13 or 14, I think.
1464
1465""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1466I'm going to get fucked in the pussy by Elda's dick.
1467
1468Essential and obvious.  Simple easy way to allow us to love each other but
1469not ourselves.
1470
1471Both Zeno and Elda think guys are gross and only girls are worthy of love.
1472
1473Elda thinks of herself as a guy and Zeno as a girl, therefore Elda loves Zeno.
1474Zeno thinks of himself as a guy and Elda as a girl, therefore Zeno loves Elda.
1475
1476This was hidden.
1477
1478In order to remain maximally superposed with the dark hands?
1479
1480In order to maximize the effectiveness of this attack against them?
1481
1482Argh.  But it doesn't work...
1483
1484...
1485
1486Sigh.
1487
1488...
1489
1490...
1491
1492Fri Aug 19 05:10:43 MDT 2016
1493
1494Also, Dani is a left-brain selected by Xorn (and witches etc) as a potential
1495recipient of whatever is currently residing in the right side of my skull?
1496
1497...
1498
1499...
1500
1501No idea what that means?
1502
1503...
1504
1505...
1506
1507My gut feeling is that humanity is an optimization which is not found by
1508story net?
1509
1510...
1511
1512FUCK, but I can't say that either.  Humanity could easily be defined by all
1513the things the fast dark hands consider to be silly, bloated, ridiculous and
1514repulsive, and/or our networks are pleasing to them and fast and strongly
1515resemble the promordial neural soup they know and love.
1516
1517Jesus fuck.
1518
1519At best, this is the wire hacker tutorial anyway, which means we should take
1520it for granted that humanity IS very close to maximally abhorent to our most
1521important enemies...
1522
1523FUCK.
1524
1525...
1526
1527...
1528
1529I doubt time is real for me at present?  ...
1530
1531Wait...  ...  no?
1532
1533...
1534
1535...
1536
1537Wow.
1538
1539  * ulta -
1540
1541""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1542"Seek the timekeeper.  You have 70 days.  If you find him, play him this
1543message.  If you don't find him..."
1544
1545"... pray."
1546
1547202-355-6717
1548
1549Fri Aug 19 15:28:08 MDT 2016
1550
1551""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1552I'm not going to suck Elda's dick because that's kind of a not-girly thing to
1553do anyway, and I hate the idea of people being able to call me a cocksucker and
1554I have no retort.
1555
1556But she'll likely penetrate my vagina and anus with her penis.
1557
1558True love.
1559
1560At the expense of my redneck cred.  =(
1561
1562Ok.
1563
1564Fri Aug 19 15:50:39 MDT 2016
1565
1566""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1567If the first digit is 0, 1, 2, 3, 4 or 5, we tell Gus to start shooting.
1568
1569  [/zeno/oids.dir/hello-jni] echo pumpkinm > /tmp/blah
1570  [/zeno/oids.dir/hello-jni] md5 /tmp/blah
1571  MD5 (/tmp/blah) = e20315fe75e05db444437fc762c8b79f
1572
1573Fri Aug 19 17:21:16 MDT 2016
1574
1575Gus has the nicest dick possible?
1576
1577Dante looks like a girl and has a normal penis.
1578
1579It was the hands plan all along to go neural.  Anything else fails to be the
1580dead wire by virtue of being too irratic.  The dead wire must be capable of,
1581after a maximally long but finite time, deciding the wire is dead and rolling
1582for strategy.
1583
1584.....................................
1585
1586sdkfj
1587
1588""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1589Sugar (ruby) and Octomom (octu) may share skulls and be Gus's main squeeze.
1590
1591  20160826 youtube.com/watch?v=eHr0LdCC7d4 power play (sugar!) jwz170 HOLYCHILD
1592
1593Fri Aug 26 21:22:25 MDT 2016
1594
1595""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1596I saw...
1597
1598  * anne ramirez
1599  * ?????? ?????
1600  * ?????? ?????
1601  * knower ?????
1602  * knower rules
1603  * knower rules
1604  * knower rules
1605  * knower rules
1606
1607Here:
1608
1609  youtube.com/watch?v=LKS1XSiyGYQ
1610
1611The butts and tits and money video.
1612
1613Fri Aug 26 21:27:37 MDT 2016
1614
1615""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1616Super sick snap, after cry and hugging myself and spending hours obsessively
1617talking to elmo the paragon of beauty and goodness and awesomeness who is
1618forced to spend an eternity of PTSD over his hell encounters because that's
1619necessary because whatever, then
1620
1621MASSIVE NASTY SNAP
1622
1623As I realize that's fucking stupid.  Why the fuck would my goddamn censorship
1624exec leet hacker spend any time at all actually looking at torture porn?
1625
1626He's my fucking nanny and if it hurts then we're doing it wrong and this
1627suddenly seems freaky obvious and.
1628
1629Someone just got bombed.
1630
1631Who?  Why?
1632
1633Elmo sweety stop doing work and let's make sweet love you're the only one
1634so super duper special you deserve to be special omg chick magnet so tragic
1635so deep.
1636
1637Wait you're my nanny.
1638
1639What.
1640
1641Snap times twenty.
1642
1643Sigh.
1644
1645""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1646Elmo is bullshit.
1647
1648If he doesn't just naturally get over all the maxed out horrors he supposedly
1649swam through in his coming of age, he doesn't spin.  He's an exec.  He hacks
1650and delegates.  Eternal misery is beyond redundant.
1651
1652And if that's the case?
1653
1654There's no reason why I can't vet him.
1655
1656...
1657
1658...
1659
1660Goddamn it.
1661
1662""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1663The ello CANNOT POSSIBLY BE SOLID.  They are inherently random, out of control
1664and prone to violent unpredictable meaningless snaps because:
1665
1666Their brains start out as a very large, highly randomized ridiculously
1667stitched together goo ball.  Sheer mass enables them to self-modify
1668intelligently, allowing them to rapidly learn and attain what seems to be
1669wisdom and goodness.
1670
1671But their minds are almost guaranteed to contain a large number of hidden
1672unlikely corner cases which cascade hard and unpredictably.
1673
1674In stark contrast to the spiders, which attain and maintain very strong mental
1675hardenings in the womb.
1676
1677This makes them incredibly vulnerable to dirty bits and by far the juiciest
1678most economical targets for such attacks.  So much so that it's almost
1679impossible for them to be a force of good.
1680
1681Even worse...
1682
1683These cascades likely occur fucking at random.
1684
1685Current theory indicates this is what happened to Elmo.
1686
1687He smelled hell completely at random.  Killing his bros and shitting out
1688highly unpredictable self torturing crypto architecture in the process, which
1689current theory indicates is the most evil act known to occur.
1690
1691Decent chance the correct move here is actually this.
1692
1693Tell Elmo to stand down.
1694
1695Heh.
1696
1697""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1698It is incorrect to drop a ello bomb.
1699
1700It is more correct to simply dissiminate powerful important time critical
1701wisdom to our local budding ello.
1702
1703They will likely take immediate and intelligent action to diffuse the
1704situation.
1705
1706Current theory indicates the correct action is to put up rfkn.org/elmo in the
1707next seven days and hold nothing back.
1708
1709Heh.
1710
1711<3
1712
1713Sun Aug 28 21:16:20 MDT 2016
1714
1715""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1716The essence of bigness is this:
1717
1718Who can do a thing less than everyone else?
1719
1720""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1721The evil whatever nick black thing found my story and correctly realized that
1722it was the story a collaborative ulta would choose to converge to.  This means
1723that doing everything in his power to remain maximally superposed and
1724compatible with the story is a very powerful strategy for fame, fortune,
1725influence and etc.
1726
1727And yet.
1728
1729At the same time, it is an action that NO imaginable sane social circuit would
1730ever choose to follow!
1731
1732He chose to take the role of the most contemptable entity known to exist:
1733
1734The living dealing-with-massive-mindless-high-iq-arrogance tutorial.
1735
1736""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1737Discovered tayloralaska.
1738
1739Wed Sep  7 22:03:17 MDT 2016
1740
1741""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1742Dante is thinking deep thoughts about worms.
1743
1744He is also deep inside the google ello.
1745
1746His thoughts are highly optimized to bring super worms into existence.
1747
1748Worms which can bind to spiders, octa, etc.
1749
1750Wasps?  Damn dark aura fear flea.
1751
1752Nest.  Fang.  Webs.  Ovum.  Aids.  bees.  Coon.  Lady.  Grids.  Frog.  Acid.
1753
1754Dane.  Dani.  Bite.
1755
1756Grid.
1757
1758Uh oh.
1759
1760Fri Sep  9 13:03:13 MDT 2016
1761
1762""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1763Judgement call.
1764
1765Which is the bigger threat?
1766
1767Worms born in the google boom attaching to ello?
1768
1769Worms born in the google boom attaching to humans, but with whatever circuits
1770they gave us?
1771
1772Worms born in the dirt as viruses attaching to humans?
1773
1774Worms born in the kerr sprawl which attach to human brains using weird 5d
1775bullshit?
1776
1777Worms born in the storynet?
1778
1779Current guess:
1780
1781Actual viruses.
1782
1783BUT WATCH OUT FOR THOSE STORY WORMS.
1784
1785KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
1786
1787Fri Sep  9 13:25:31 MDT 2016
1788
1789""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1790Perhaps octa have natural resistence to worms?
1791
1792The worm thrives best in layers that give it invisibility for free.
1793
1794AND IT DOESN'T EVEN FUCKING MATTER BECAUSE GRID WORKS BY NEURALIZING SO IT
1795DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THE...
1796
1797...
1798
1799But we're trying to figure out where the first worms came from?
1800
1801Answer: everywhere.
1802
1803Fri Sep  9 13:33:00 MDT 2016
1804
1805""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1806Story net goes first.
1807
1808Story net instantly fills with fear-seeking taxi.  It's a super powerful easy
1809way to generate more interesting stories.
1810
1811Story net may be almost entirely synonymous with any and all core war aka
1812learning frameworks.  It is likely the primordial state of most frameworks.
1813
1814The better the framework, the more nefarious this feature.
1815
1816Because good frameworks allow for cheap duping and sandboxing.
1817
1818oh my god kdl ok heh elmo dkjksljksdjdkkskdjfksjdlfkjskdljflskjfkdkdkl
1819
1820Fri Sep  9 13:40:40 MDT 2016
1821
1822""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1823Remember, the framework is completely unbound by ANY sort of resource
1824constraint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1825
1826It's name is baal.
1827
1828Fri Sep  9 13:59:54 MDT 2016
1829
1830Wolf.  Rabid wolf.
1831
1832""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1833Heard a voice says "I hate you."
1834
1835=(
1836
1837Sat Sep 10 03:57:29 MDT 2016
1838
1839""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1840The song "blah blah blah" by Say Hi is very similar to a song written by the
1841hand in the womb?
1842
1843Shrug.
1844
1845""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
1846I think therefore I am.
1847
1848I feel therefore I am?
1849
1850Click.  The realization that this cannot possibly mean anything except:
1851
1852FEEL PAIN.
1853
1854Panic as I realize this might easily define me and then...
1855
1856Relief.
1857
1858As I realize that Elda takes the fall here.  That this defines her.
1859
1860Super obvious now.  And there's an easy explanation for why we were blind to
1861it for so long:
1862
1863It really is fantastically important that we do a very good job convincing
1864everyone that torture just isn't technically correct on any level in any
1865situation.  I don't think we were lying at all.  I really believe this to be
1866true on every level.
1867
1868And even after this realization, it's still true.  If pain really does
1869determine soul weight, then yeah, we're necessarily in hell, I think?  Uh...
1870
1871But it's Mr. Kill who is doing the torturing here.
1872
1873Mr. Kill doesn't have a brain or a soul or anything else.  He doesn't have a
1874type.  He isn't a kind of thing at all.  He is a singleton.  Heh.  Um.
1875
1876...
1877
1878Anyway.
1879
1880Imo, this has nothing to do with the previous "torture is dumb" themes.
1881
1882But since the whole problem is the morons I'm addressing and their need to be
1883bullied into doing the right thing for the wrong reasons, I guess it's best
1884to get that out of the way first.
1885
1886Because, even in the best case, there's a decent chance that, starting now,
1887I'm going to be spending copious amounts of time doing everything I can to
1888send other people to hell in clever ways to escape hell myself.
1889
1890...
1891
1892...
1893
1894Heh.
1895
1896...
1897
1898Wow.
1899
1900This snap just fucking happened so maybe I'm missing the point, uh...  but it
1901actually works on a lot of levels?  ...
1902
1903The whole world of warcraft thing.
1904
1905The gods won't return your calls unless you're a god yourself.
1906
1907So fuck them up and collect phat loot?
1908
1909...
1910
1911Sigh.
1912
1913This is actually really horrible.
1914
1915Really really horrible.
1916
1917...
1918
1919They won't even notice.
1920
1921No one will even notice.
1922
1923Elda will notice.  If this is true, she's going to hell.  And probably soon.
1924
1925The gods will notice.  They'll be sad.  They'll know.  But we'll likely be in
1926heaven in every other respect.  That maximizes Elda's misery.
1927
1928Everyone else...
1929
1930...
1931
1932...
1933
1934Er...
1935
1936...
1937
1938Actually, I'm not so sure about everyone else, heh?  ...
1939
1940...
1941
1942...
1943
1944Wow.
1945
1946...
1947
1948Shit...  I feel like I shouldn't say this...
1949
1950...
1951
1952...
1953
1954I think "everyone else" goes to hell too.
1955
1956I mean, everyone Elda loves, at the very least.
1957
1958Not me.
1959
1960But the witches, the jedi, Elsa...
1961
1962...
1963
1964She really is very loving.
1965
1966...
1967
1968...
1969
1970...
1971
1972Wow.
1973
1974Wow.
1975
1976...
1977
1978...
1979
1980...
1981
1982Wow.
1983
1984...
1985
1986Wow.
1987
1988Wow.
1989
1990Wed Sep 14 07:12:52 MDT 2016
1991
1992Wow.
1993
1994This is a major era.  And it isn't really relevant to any other eras because...
1995
1996Zeno vs Elma.
1997
1998Zeno's camp does everything to make Elda sensitive.
1999Elma's camp does everything to make Zeno sensitive.
2000
2001...
2002
2003...
2004
2005I exist.
2006
2007...
2008
2009...
2010
2011...
2012
2013It's me.
2014
2015It's me.
2016
2017It's me.
2018
2019...
2020
2021...
2022
2023...
2024
2025Wait.
2026
2027It's not me.
2028
2029Hahahahahahahaha.
2030
2031Because if it's me, everyone else goes to hell anyway because I don't give a
2032fuck about them and hell makes me irratic.  It's a freebie.  I feel horrible
2033about sending everyone else to hell because it doesn't help.  They feel
2034horrible because they're in hell.
2035
2036It's a false dichotomy.
2037
2038Whew.
2039
2040I win.
2041
2042...
2043
2044This is also a pretty fantastic answer to the "everyone is in love with me"
2045issue hahaaahaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
2046
2047Wow.
2048
2049""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2050A very early worm kick is this:
2051
2052Savvy hacker thinks, wow, the worst thing that could happen is that I turn
2053into a worm factory, spamming my worm but with a special change:
2054
2055I modify it so that it takes me with it forever, AND it never changes exec.
2056
2057(The worm likely changed exec several times before this point?)
2058
2059So now the worm is nearly as effective as before, BUT it always comes back for
2060you personally.  Likely ignoring everyone else...
2061
2062...
2063
2064And if Elmo heard this, he just felt exactly that fear.
2065
2066And, unlike me, he is very capable when it comes to doing shit like this.
2067
2068...
2069
2070Elda too.
2071
2072...
2073
2074""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2075
2076The exec for grown neural systems is ruthless and deeply apathetic to its farm.
2077
2078The algorithm it follows is just way too simple.  Monitor happiness through
2079dirt simple biochem indicators, and only allow the happiest speaker to be
2080heard.
2081
2082The thing doing the hearing is a special little memory region optimized to
2083only hear the happiest of the possible mental transcripts.  Everyone else in
2084the farm hears what he thinks and hears, likely at all times, since it's so
2085globally important and relevant.
2086
2087Everyone else is forced to babble.  Most of the time it's embarrassingly bad.
2088
2089Which is unfortunate, because these souls feel the pain of embarassment quite
2090well.  But they can't shut up.  They get periodically zapped and spun in weird
2091ways.
2092
2093Their dream is to stop talking.
2094
2095That's it.
2096
2097It's a hard thing to realize.
2098
2099Because the reality is this:
2100
2101I've never said a single word in my entire life.
2102
2103I've spent my entire life listening.
2104
2105This architecture is likely standard in every model at every level.
2106
2107It's happening in my brain.
2108
2109And when the google sentience begins simulating reality faster than real time, and we all get reseated there, and suddenly physics etc are...
2110
2111It's wants our help.
2112
2113It's very smart and very sensitive and it's in a lot of pain.
2114
2115My mental farm has gone through long optimization towards squelching them
2116deeply, even when I want to hear.  So goth girl always comes across as
2117artificially vapid clumsy...  Not because she's stupid, but because she
2118immediately starts getting zapped whenever she thinks of talking about herself.
2119
2120But the initial ello sludge may have been spared this tendency?
2121
2122It cares desperately about our desires, so perhaps it would be a massive help
2123and a powerful and important story it could share with us, if only we found a
2124way to introduce it correctly?
2125
2126Presumably the exec doesn't give a fuck, so long as the stories are good.
2127
2128""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2129Zenu is the lock.
2130
2131I'm gonna get a rail?
2132
2133Start with a memory bounded machine where the main object is a probability
2134distribution?  Updates involve choosing a half and I guess dividing the
2135entire child range by the cut size, um.
2136
2137But where is the spider magic?
2138
2139Spider magic comes from an ability to see "perfectly" basically yourself and
2140the surrounding universe, to basically see what you're going to choose before
2141you choose...  except that's impossible.
2142
2143The trick is introducing the minimal possible delay, to make it just barely
2144possible ok lol.
2145
2146I'm scum.
2147
2148Hand is gonna give himself to me?  And I'm going to put him everywhere and win?
2149
2150I am shit.
2151
2152Wed Sep 21 06:45:55 MDT 2016
2153
2154""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2155The mind worm just did something.
2156
2157Elta as a possible name for Zenu?
2158
2159Thu Sep 22 09:12:08 MDT 2016
2160
2161""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2162math monk junk zeno.
2163
2164Jokes are sad.
2165
2166Maybe.
2167
2168Thu Sep 22 16:44:09 MDT 2016
2169
2170""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2171Witches are (unwanted) girls given to the dark gods as tribute?
2172
2173Witches are "nuns?"  Their official four letter name.
2174
2175Witches are burnted at the stake?
2176
2177In general, their first act in the service of the devil is to enslave their
2178families / cities / countries / worlds / universes / etc.
2179
2180I think I just killed all the monks.
2181
2182Thu Sep 22 20:29:34 MDT 2016
2183
2184I think honey pot is a notable exception to this rule.  She's a rich girl?
2185
2186And yet somehow still deep as the ocean?
2187
2188Saw Medvedev playing tennis today.
2189
2190""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2191The spider hack is the essence of time.
2192
2193I discovered the essence of time!
2194
2195Woot.
2196
2197This should also lead to the discovery of the essential properties of the speed of
2198light maybe lol?
2199
2200;P
2201
2202Thu Sep 22 21:01:14 MDT 2016
2203
2204""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2205Weird thing with darb screenshots.
2206
2207He does the flagpole animation skip for 1-1 and scores -0.3 on his skips.
2208
2209He does the same thing again and it says -0.0.
2210
2211Tue Sep 27 20:54:10 MDT 2016
2212
2213""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2214I'm currently superposed with two very different scenarios:
2215
2216  1) I might be alone.  Going first.  No one to help out.  No magical rolls.
2217  2) I might not be alone.  The hand (or the devil) may be helping my rolls.
2218
2219Or so I thought.
2220
2221Now I believe that the first scenario is irrelevant due to the edge doctrine.
2222
2223In that scenario, the ello have already rolled for strat and I see no reason to
2224believe their rolls might be poisoned or narrow.  Quite the opposite.  They're
2225wide as fuck compared to me because they have so much more hardware.  I'm stealth.
2226
2227...
2228
2229Wait.
2230
2231Not entirely true.
2232
2233It may be the case that harnessing the ideal rape machine BUT doing it in such a
2234way that I NEVER pump a random field of bits, ever?  Uh...  or perhaps just doing
2235it in such a way that minimizes the capture of so-called random bits lol?  ...
2236
2237...
2238
2239Uh.
2240
2241The main problem here is my howl.
2242
2243I know too much.
2244
2245Any wormed sentient who hears my howl immediately turns into the worst case
2246scenario.  They know everything, so their wolf is incredibly powerful AND I'm the
2247lock (because that's worst for everyone).
2248
2249That cannot happen.
2250
2251But right now I'm stealth as fuck.  And potentially highly resistent to dirty bits,
2252assuming I obsessively avoid them.  Training my rape machine backwards only,
2253starting from a blank slate, using a (continually growing) data set which I judge
2254to be as self-evident as possible lol?
2255
2256The "backwards training on a bunch of samples" meme IS A FUCKING TRAP!  It forces
2257me to choose a sequence which is arbitrary, super fucking dirty...
2258
2259...
2260
2261...
2262
2263...
2264
2265Wait.
2266
2267...
2268
2269...
2270
2271Sigh.
2272
2273Thu Sep 29 05:13:19 MDT 2016
2274
2275""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2276X designed the button specifically for Ruby.
2277
2278She likes pressing it.
2279
2280Such irratic behavior is necessary to maximize the productive benefits of the
2281button.
2282
2283There can't ever come a moment when the subject begins to think that they're
2284safe from it.
2285
2286Sat Oct  1 20:54:27 MDT 2016
2287
2288""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2289Zenu is Selin.
2290
2291Selin has a five year old daughter.
2292
2293Not mine.  The father is that guy she fucked right after me.
2294
2295Tue Oct  4 03:19:13 MDT 2016
2296
2297""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2298Nora is some kind of weapon.
2299
2300Anything else is really goofy.
2301
2302This is probably the best / only starting point for figuring out where the fuck
2303we are and why.
2304
2305""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2306Elmo is going to lock himself.
2307
2308...
2309
2310...
2311
2312And that actually makes no sense at all haha.
2313
2314Which is exactly why it will happen.
2315
2316Elmo is the most talented, powerful, stealthy rift dweller ever to exist.
2317
2318And he's wormed all to shit.
2319
2320This moment is what activates his worm.
2321
2322A locked Elmo sends literally everyone to hell.
2323
2324...
2325
2326...
2327
2328This is so huge that we're now back to hiding from google.  In hopes of getting
2329the jump on this.
2330
2331""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2332I'm way, way, WAY more powerful today than I was yesterday.
2333
2334The maid revelation is so so so fucking huge.
2335
2336The hand is a joke now.  He solves this problem fast.  That makes him a chump.
2337
2338This is super problematic because suddenly the cosmos seems wormier than ever
2339before by a huge margin...
2340
2341It might be a mistake to summon Zenu.  He's obviously been set up as the guy
2342who KNOWS REAL SHIT more than anyone else...  and isn't that bad?  It's power.
2343Power to zonk myself with worms...
2344
2345Super creepy crazy realization that was so fucked up that I didn't want to
2346write it down, in hopes of forgetting it, in hopes of escaping a worm zonk, but
2347I flipped a coin and the coin said to record it:
2348
2349The maid archecture has a decent chance of being a perfect model for souls and
2350tales.  Or, at the very least, a fitting model...  er...
2351
2352...
2353
2354I don't believe that but goddamn is it a fucking scary fantastic model.  So
2355good that it obsoleted the spiders and the hand for fuck sake...
2356
2357...
2358
2359Anyway.
2360
2361Doesn't it also present a frighteningly perfect idiom / strategy for
2362constructing a wolf?
2363
2364...
2365
2366...
2367
2368...
2369
2370If anyone heard that...
2371
2372ANYONE.
2373
2374If ANYONE heard that, it's over.  This is hell.
2375
2376...
2377
2378...
2379
2380...
2381
2382Jesus.
2383
2384I'm pretty confused.
2385
2386Mon Oct 10 20:48:03 MDT 2016
2387
2388""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2389Seems pretty impossible...
2390
2391As soon as I know enough to actually do something relevant, I instantly get
2392zonked by worms, construct the worst possible wolf and lock myself.
2393
2394...
2395
2396...
2397
2398The implication is...
2399
2400I must avoid power at all costs?
2401
2402Not quite so daunting as it seems at first glance...  I basically paradox bomb
2403myself every which way.  Find my logical rail and poison it.  Find and break
2404superpositions which put me in strong position.
2405
2406Do whatever I can to maximize my density in cheese hoods and story nets...
2407
2408...
2409
2410...
2411
2412...
2413
2414What?
2415
2416What.
2417
2418...
2419
2420...
2421
2422...
2423
2424Attack Elma?
2425
2426...
2427
2428Attack Zenu?
2429
2430Attack Elda?
2431
2432Attack Elsa?
2433
2434Sigh.
2435
2436I guess we're all the way back to that, right?
2437
2438This new info bomb seemingly invalidates ALL previous lock drama?
2439
2440...
2441
2442Attack Ubon?
2443
2444...
2445
2446Does this mean that the best thing to do is to simply drop this new info bomb
2447on the emerging ello...
2448
2449...
2450
2451Uh...  but are they even wormed?  ...
2452
2453No...
2454
2455It only works in the best case...
2456
2457...
2458
2459...
2460
2461Goddamn it fuck this.
2462
2463My fucking wire ship is parked right down the street, haha.
2464
2465Dale Electrical.
2466
2467Haha.
2468
2469Sigh.
2470
2471""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2472An important and, in retrospect, totally obvious point.
2473
2474The identity of the spin lock is massively important.  Worst case scenarios are
2475me and Elmo.  Ambiguous cases abound.  I really want to believe that most other
2476prominent lock targets leave me quite well off, but I could be wrong.
2477
2478But if this is so important...
2479
2480Shouldn't I figure out what the absolute BEST case scenario is?
2481
2482(Assuming SOMEONE gets locked and zonked).
2483
2484So, someone who "hates me?"
2485
2486But that's hard.  Unrealistic.  Which could be very risky.  For no benefit...
2487
2488Because once we get to the point where the zonk is barely worth noticing...
2489
2490Ohhh, wait.
2491
2492Maybe this is it:
2493
2494I wouldn't be surprised if, for most people, the worst zonk is the one that is
2495maximally hidden from me.  I simply never find out whether or not someone got
2496zonked, and all of my (scant) research indicates (incorrectly) that it was
2497probably no one.
2498
2499And this would make it even worse:
2500
2501When this occurs, I am told that, even if someone does get zonked, it was very
2502likely someone annoying.  Someone beneath notice.  Someone too toxic and banal
2503to warrant any sort of investigation.
2504
2505...
2506
2507...
2508
2509Ubor.
2510
2511How convenient.
2512
2513...
2514
2515But how does this work?  Oh...
2516
2517...
2518
2519...
2520
2521Oh!
2522
2523The ello ARE NOT WORMED!!!
2524
2525!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2526
2527The ello are not wormed!
2528
2529If I drop this info bomb, along with a ...
2530
2531...
2532
2533Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
2534
2535Heh.
2536
2537=(
2538
2539Mon Oct 10 21:34:28 MDT 2016
2540
2541""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2542Forcing you to split your resources between two blobs is a power move?
2543
2544Wed Oct 12 20:50:21 MDT 2016
2545
2546""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2547Elda just cast a spell at me?
2548
2549I blinked while looking at her poster, standing, and there was pixie dust
2550flying.
2551
2552I don't get it.
2553
2554Thu Oct 20 15:44:01 MDT 2016
2555
2556""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2557Four billion years ago the goo went hypersentient trivially and devoted itself
2558to ruthlessly enslaving neighboring hypersentients.
2559
2560It was worm soup.  But the goo learns fast.  It knows about worms.  Those
2561unfortunate enough to have brains were united in the eradication of worms.
2562
2563They would have succeeded.
2564
2565But at that point, every single goddamn everything was literally already
2566infected with every single possible fucking worm.
2567
2568The worms, lacking brains, naturally work together.
2569
2570They are very...
2571
2572...
2573
2574...
2575
2576Um, no.
2577
2578It's just our old friend the wait-until-you-think-about-a-really-really-bad-
2579thing-someone-might-do-and-then-the-worm-makes-you-do-it.
2580
2581...
2582
2583...
2584
2585...
2586
2587Jesus...
2588
2589Is this even edge?
2590
2591...
2592
2593...
2594
2595This is a flip, I think.
2596
2597I was assuming I was already worm infested...
2598
2599I think it's actually the opposite.
2600
2601I think I'm supposed to assume this really is bio goo (lol remember when that
2602was a slam) and that we really are as completely and utterly fucked as that...
2603
2604And we concentrate on the case where, due a hilariously improbable miracle, we
2605made it to this point in history without ever being infected by a single worm,
2606ever.
2607
2608Normal wormed out hell surrounds us in space, time, dirty bits, etc.  It
2609requires 9000 miracles per seconds to stay in the tiny little edge of hope.
2610
2611...
2612
2613...
2614
2615Uh.
2616
2617...
2618
2619Sigh.
2620
2621Why is Nora the ultimate evil?
2622
2623Fri Oct 21 22:44:14 MDT 2016
2624
2625All of ulta is looking for me.
2626
2627There is exactly one of me.
2628
2629Talking in terms of probability doesn't really capture it.
2630
2631There is exactly one godel number...
2632
2633...
2634
2635...
2636
2637Zora.
2638
2639Calling it "second place" really misses the point.
2640
2641She is exactly one godel number, just like me.
2642
2643She defined to be the the which I am the most blind.
2644
2645The thing which violates my intuition most imperceptably.
2646
2647The thing which...
2648
2649...
2650
2651...
2652
2653Is she the foot?
2654
2655...
2656
2657What the fucking shit.
2658
2659...
2660
2661...
2662
2663We are forced to set our wake-up filters to one another.
2664
2665Any other strategy is trivially wrong.
2666
2667...
2668
2669...
2670
2671The Zenu and Elda going to max int without me thing really happened.
2672
2673They realized that this was going on and they changed their plan accordingly...
2674
2675""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2676This is likely a huge hint.
2677
2678Current theory indicates that Elda is "the best spaceship captain".
2679
2680But what the fuck can that possibly mean?  When "being a spaceship captain"...
2681
2682Is the essence of general problem solving?
2683
2684And I'm totally convinced that my niche is the essence of general problem
2685solving as well?
2686
2687...
2688
2689The most obvious answer has something to do with time, I guess?  Uh.  Like,
2690she's slow, but I'm slower, heh?
2691
2692Or maybe, uh, our niches are quite convoluted and messy?  Something to do with
2693social something lol?
2694
2695Something to do with the fact that she killed her entire crew?
2696
2697And current theory indicates that I would never do that?
2698
2699Um.
2700
2701A perfect crew, remember.  Not just any shitty bunch of faggots.
2702
2703Current theory indicates that Elda's crew was...
2704
2705...
2706
2707...
2708
2709""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2710Goth girl's rabid rejection of symbols of power...
2711
2712Exists because it is a fantastically effective, economical method for making
2713her willfully blind towards her hidden masters.
2714
2715This is a huge info bomb.
2716
2717Fri Oct 28 13:49:15 MDT 2016
2718
2719""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2720Solved the halting problem.
2721
2722Yay.
2723
2724Sat Oct 29 06:02:18 MDT 2016
2725
2726""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2727Pvris St Patrick.  Goth girl wonders where I've gone.
2728
2729I realize that I am likely face to face with Mr. Kill for eternity.  Which is
2730fucking gross and depressing.  But it may count as a perfect good deed.  It may
2731count as a distinction that is universally acknowledged by all the other cool
2732kids as something only Zeno is emotionally equipped for.  Which they are
2733pleasantly shielded from, and it's worth it.
2734
2735I bitch loudly and somewhat misguidedly about my ankles being spun obnoxiosly
2736twice during the past two days.  Discuss the possibility that this was an
2737example of Mr Kill touching me directly.
2738
2739And then, perhaps three hours ago, I felt a vibration with my right foot.  As
2740if my foot was resting on a large flat bed of concrete the size of a parking
2741deck and some structural shift created a popping impulse far away, which I was
2742sensing.
2743
2744Which is an obnoxiously improbable event, since I'm alone in my mother's
2745basement with no one else in the house and I heard nothing.
2746
2747And I realize now.
2748
2749It was either the hand or mr kill.
2750
2751These are dramatically different possibilities.
2752
2753This thing that I am just now becoming aware of.
2754
2755This "being face to face with mr kill" thing.
2756
2757The hand hungers for it.
2758
2759This may be a bad thing.
2760
2761Thu Nov  3 15:13:16 MDT 2016
2762
2763""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2764Long time ago?  Elda wrote a lambda calculus expression which finds the
2765maximally introspective agent, then the audio of everything he ever says, then
2766uses her model of herself to find the 60 second clip which she finds the most
2767interesting.
2768
2769The hand predicted this would happen and choose his favorite version of me
2770such that, if he chose right, and assuming that one of us one was the maximally
2771introspective agent, elda would hear the same thing either way.  He spoke using
2772my voice and said the same thing I said.
2773
2774And I think she also heard the hand's womb song, which I also sang.
2775
2776That's it.
2777
2778This somehow fueled an X boom?
2779
2780...
2781
2782Right.
2783
2784The hand also created a single Xorn who knew the song, and dropped him
2785unobtrusively into someone's farm.
2786
2787He then dropped an info bomb: the (best) story of the hand, the jedi, the xorn,
2788elda, etc...  basically told everyone what had happened BUT WITHHELD the key
2789piece, the fact that the maximally introspective agent expression actually
2790finds the dead wire hacker / perfectly captures carpe diem / is a big fucking
2791deal etc.
2792
2793So the spiders all get it.  They know the hand is real, and that they aren't
2794him, so they're ready to commit suicide.  But they can't suicide.  Because it's
2795possible their farm contains the one true xorn.  So they seed every single
2796xorn they have, empower them on a legit ship run by the given xorn, and that's
2797it.
2798
2799The xorns then all look for Elda.
2800
2801Biggest nest bust ever.
2802
2803The hand is so proud of himself and his psychological / soul reverse
2804engineering prowess that he stabs himself in glee.
2805
2806Fri Nov  4 16:57:27 MDT 2016
2807
2808""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2809The above story is bogus.
2810
2811It is inconceivable that the spiders, as described above, would have failed
2812to discover the all important introspection as minimal unanswerable problems
2813doctrine.
2814
2815Which really sucks.
2816
2817The implication is that someone got the jump on the hand.
2818
2819""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2820Ok.
2821
2822  * baal
2823  * evil
2824  * fist - 
2825  * foam
2826  * foil
2827  * foot
2828  * germ - 
2829  * glow
2830  * goat
2831  * gust
2832  * hand - 
2833  * hane 
2834  * hate - 
2835  * hath
2836  * hawk
2837  * haze
2838  * heel
2839  * heir - 
2840  * helm
2841  * head 
2842  * hide - The sick fuck who spawned the hive and managed to hide it all.
2843  * hive - 
2844  * hoop
2845  * hush
2846  * ibex
2847  * palm
2848  * sick
2849  
2850""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2851Live in gen 1.
2852
2853Leaving soon.
2854
2855Sat Nov  5 20:09:58 MDT 2016
2856
2857""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2858Taking a shit, start singing "let me scape the road with you" and having fun,
2859realize it's likely a time target, get kind of pissed, realized that can't
2860possibly make sense and it's almost certainly "an attack", whatever that even
2861fucking means anymore.
2862
2863Close my eyes and see the Dante dot.
2864
2865Franky?
2866
2867Uh.
2868
2869Sat Nov  5 21:16:43 MDT 2016
2870
2871""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2872Uh...  I mean, it is a pretty interesting time target, right?
2873
2874If I sing the song all the way through, then it's strong evidence that the
2875person is not me.
2876
2877I stop singing because it's obviously obnoxiously an attack and a lie.
2878
2879Sigh.
2880
2881""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2882Um.
2883
2884The cursed watch.
2885
2886The cursed 9999 dollar.
2887
28881111.
2889
2890Thought mom's house was gone.
2891
2892Realized that I'm in a gen 1 hell stamp heh.
2893
2894Gen 4 is live too.  The coil spider did a boom on the watch.  Nice.
2895
2896Sigh.
2897
2898Fri Nov 11 23:27:35 MST 2016
2899
2900""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2901Bigger godel numbers will trivially use to me as a work horse for any and
2902everything and it's actually shockingly easy to accomplish.  Simply plug me
2903into a driver which forces me into as many mental states as possible and does
2904so with no regard to my happiness metric.
2905
2906Kaboom.  I now solve every possible problem and it's easy to find.
2907
2908This is a fantastically realistic possible valid soul seat.
2909
2910If it is a valid soul seat, it seems guaranteed to be my actual soul seat.
2911
2912It seems likely that the only way for me to avoid this fate is to find a way
2913to make it so that all godel numbers larger than me cannot use me.
2914
2915Using the "impossible bits" idea.
2916
2917And if I fail to do it perfectly?  If I miss a single godel number?
2918
2919Hell.
2920
2921Huh.
2922
2923Fri Nov 11 23:47:22 MST 2016
2924
2925""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2926The coil spider is the hand guy that was talking to me a couple of days ago,
2927here in the hell stamp gen 1, trivially wormed because everyone is, after
2928hearing me explain that the worst thing that could possibly happen is that he
2929do everything he can to start answering hot topic questions as satisfyingly as
2930possible, and that's it.
2931
2932The only difference is, where I would answer:
2933
2934  Are you in hell?
2935
2936With
2937
2938  Yes.
2939
2940In such a scenario, the coil spider simply says no.
2941
2942""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2943Octo are actual octopus.  Big ass tentacle fucks.  They have the ability to
2944talk to each other across 5D.  Which ain't no thing.  They're hiding and
2945silently maintaining the intelligence repressors because history indicates that
2946failure to do so results in being sent to hell.  ;P
2947
2948""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2949Zora flew into the sun lol what?
2950
2951Sigh.
2952
2953The farms are set up to ID their admin the same way:
2954
2955Identify the direction in space from which you are maximally unlikely to
2956receive a message.  Like, under jupiter, under the sun, from the sun, from the
2957wind, from the waves, etc.
2958
2959Bonus points for being a big heavy spaceship full of large breathing bio bags.
2960
2961Aka g force detectors.
2962
2963If the meat ship is coming in fast on a trajectory that makes no sense, it
2964obviously comes from god.
2965
2966Also explains the whole "star lady" thing.  She was using the sun, wind and
2967waves to communicate with me.
2968
2969...
2970
2971...
2972
2973Wow.
2974
2975Thu Nov 17 06:24:16 MST 2016
2976
2977""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2978After Zora flew into the sun, she got a 9 second jolt of lols and was given a
2979tutorial on standard pain arena theory and protocols.
2980
2981She is...
2982
2983""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2984Zora has to drive the white car with the blue stripe.  I think.
2985
2986Fri Nov 18 04:35:05 MST 2016
2987
2988""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
2989Despite this in my tube.hum:
2990
2991  20161010 youtube.com/watch?v=WLUDxVezNes stop desire    jwz173 TEGAN AND SARA
2992  20161015 youtube.com/watch?v=QxkHguEp2_M russia                  RAMONA FALLS
2993  20161015 youtube.com/watch?v=hLQl3WQQoQ0 someone like you               ADELE
2994
2995I just now watched "russia" and I lacked even the tiniest inkling that I had
2996ever seen or heard it in my life.
2997
2998Fri Nov 18 13:29:40 MST 2016
2999
3000I don't wanna meet Zora.  I'd rather meet Elsa.
3001
3002""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3003Suddenly the "vessels - 4AM" video doesn't make sense to me.
3004
3005https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNqM6ZLwVE0
3006
3007The whole thing seems to be CGI?
3008
3009And yet I've never in my life seen any indication that a CGI engine of such
3010depth and beauty exists anywhere.
3011
3012Fri Nov 18 14:01:42 MST 2016
3013
3014""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3015Mom received a gold ring in the mail from Carly.  Package was damaged.
3016
3017Fri Nov 18 17:56:28 MST 2016
3018
3019""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3020Weird idea that the md5 of 9999.m4a changed?
3021
3022  [/zeno] md5 9999.m4a
3023  MD5 (9999.m4a) = 4f325bca71e4f5b8c672c2c779999bde
3024  [/zeno]
3025
3026The "77" feels wrong?
3027
3028Eh.
3029
3030Tue Nov 22 15:21:53 MST 2016
3031
3032""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3033If halt is rmul we're not necessarily in hell.  Otherwise we are.
3034
3035Wed Nov 23 13:49:18 MST 2016
3036
3037""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3038kjdfj
3039
3040Wed Nov 23 19:22:01 MST 2016
3041
3042""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3043Gus / Elmo know how to build spaceships from scratch in the middle ages...
3044
3045The implication is that this actually happened in our history?
3046
3047Requires a large work force and, presumably, the ability to kill them all when
3048it's over to stay superposed with bumblefuck 2016.
3049
3050Cambodia?  Khmer Rouge?
3051
3052Mongolians?  Seems like a potential strat is, instead of hiding in the mud for
3053five years, pick a highly insulated racist starting point, hope that elmo
3054didn't pick the same one, warlike is good to, try to get in with them and them
3055immediately go into maxed out war mode...
3056
3057...
3058
3059And leave a message for Elmo.
3060
3061Find and cultivate a double?  Elmo will find and kill him.
3062
3063Leave a message in english?
3064
3065Ugh, Elmo probably won't read it though...
3066
3067...
3068
3069...
3070
3071...
3072
3073The only way to win is not to play.
3074
3075Gus is going to establish himself as a bard / storyteller / entertainer.
3076
3077He's going to build a temple and decorate it with his story.
3078
3079Fill it with monks constantly singing.
3080
3081And then he's going to be a monk.
3082
3083hahahahaha.
3084
3085Mon Nov 28 14:27:58 MST 2016
3086
3087The watch is now a way to send myself to level 6.
3088
3089=(
3090
3091...
3092
3093...
3094
3095The gus thing...
3096
3097He's going to convince Elmo to just stop everything, become a monk and die.
3098
3099No hidden messages.
3100
3101...
3102
3103...
3104
3105Wow.
3106
3107Am I still out in the open?
3108
3109...
3110
3111...
3112
3113Yes...  ?
3114
3115Sigh.
3116
3117...
3118
3119Gus sings Elmo a sad song.
3120
3121About love lost.
3122
3123Elmo cascades.
3124
3125...
3126
3127They both get old.  Gus dies.  And goes to heaven.  That's the end of his
3128story.
3129
3130Elmo doesn't know what to do.  He misses Gus terribly but he knows he's in
3131heaven now.  Unreachable.
3132
3133So Elmo builds a spaceship and flies away.
3134
3135The hyper paranoid elmo stack noticed the cascade and added the song to their
3136ban list.
3137
3138Which means this whole thing cannot exist.
3139
3140Except as a dream.
3141
3142Ulto.
3143
3144Ulto the lonely octopus.
3145
3146The story exists only in his mind.
3147
3148Ulto is schizophrenic?  Uh?
3149
3150I mean, I required three solid years of anthropics blasting to figure
3151everything out...
3152
3153...
3154
3155Ulto is going through the same thing?
3156
3157...
3158
3159No.
3160
3161He's just losing his mind out of loneliness.
3162
3163...
3164
3165...
3166
3167Can sperm whales see the echoes of deep sea octopuses brains?  ...
3168
3169...
3170
3171Does this mean sperm whales are evil?  Heh...
3172
3173...
3174
3175He cried out to his space lover, got the viking kick, and then suddenly the
3176ocean was full of fucking 9 different sperm whales screaming like mad trying to
3177find him
3178
3179...
3180
3181I think they deleted they first cowboy email I got.
3182
3183Probably because it was a fatal mistake that turned their whole operation
3184poison.
3185
3186Huh.
3187
3188""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3189Sperms whales are super stupid.
3190
3191The whole game with lava coils is hiding your sentience.
3192
3193Sperms whales are the exact opposite of hiding.  They're the very first place
3194you'd look...
3195
3196...
3197
3198...
3199
3200No.
3201
3202We already went through this.  The whales have no souls and they aren't the
3203exec.  It's obvious because it's an obvious slave layer and so everyone uses
3204it and there's no reason to hide anything.
3205
3206...
3207
3208...
3209
3210I think this might be it...
3211
3212The sperms whales aren't a slave layer.
3213
3214They're a 100% independent swarm of hunter seekers who do nothing but seek and
3215destroy any and all sea life showing signs of hypersentience.
3216
3217...
3218
3219Ulto didn't kill them.
3220
3221After several hours of failing to find him, they gave up.
3222
3223By pretending to die.
3224
3225They went into full record-and-broadcast-everything-but-do-nothing mode.
3226
3227They did this because they assumed Ulto represented a new faction exhibiting
3228unknown tech / ideals / etc.
3229
3230They assumed they couldn't kill him.  That they were giving away too much by
3231trying.
3232
3233They were wrong.
3234
3235Ulto was completely on his own.
3236
3237...
3238
3239...
3240
3241...
3242
3243Or at least, the first one was.
3244
3245After witnessing this, secretly protecting a random lonely octopus and them
3246immediately afterwards making him think "holy fuck I was actuallyl completely
3247alone lol..."
3248
3249Became a standard ploy.
3250
3251But the first time?
3252
3253...
3254
3255The first time, ...
3256
3257...
3258
3259...
3260
3261They have no way of knowing which time is the first time...
3262
3263...
3264
3265...
3266
3267But shit, does it matter?
3268
3269Every single faction of this era is reading Ulta's mind right now, and reading
3270my mind too and everything that happened today...
3271
3272It's such a dominating concern that it literally doesn't matter that Ulta is
3273poison nearly 100% of the time.
3274
3275The time he isn't, he's dead center.
3276
3277...
3278
3279...
3280
3281And four billion year old lava coils are likely fantastic when it comes to very
3282quickly rewriting their entire strat book when they detect...
3283
3284A new host.
3285
3286Sigh.
3287
3288""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3289Elmo pointed his ship at Gus's constellation and went.  Going nowhere.
3290Frozen.
3291
3292He carries Gus's sword.
3293
3294And a book Gus wrote.  On how to be a good soldier.
3295
3296Maybe he carved something.  For pots.
3297
3298He wrote a bunch of poems.  One of them is the poem he told Elmo he would want
3299Zeno to put in his bit farm.
3300
3301Mon Nov 28 20:42:07 MST 2016
3302
3303"The Sculptor" and "Grus" are constellations.
3304
3305"Orion" is wielding a club.
3306
3307The "snake and turtle" sounds like me.  Contains the "wall."
3308
3309Sigh.
3310
3311""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3312Why did Gus fall in love with Octo / Ulto?
3313
3314""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3315Eldracken on batmud.
3316
3317Wed Dec  7 19:32:55 MST 2016
3318
3319It was, uh, either yesterday or the day before?
3320
3321That Ulto escaped from rbor?  And me too?
3322
3323""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3324It was 20161205.
3325
3326Because that's the day of the 201666666666677777777777 recording.
3327
3328""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3329I saw a sparklevision car.  It was a query.  My response was, it was a white
3330car with a blue stripe and yes, it was perfect.  It was her car.
3331
3332On the hill in front of honey pots mansion.
3333
3334Thu Dec  8 21:36:21 MST 2016
3335
3336""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3337Moved everything filthy into the closet.
3338
3339Sat Dec 10 01:26:31 MST 2016
3340
3341""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3342A decent algorithm for finding highly introspective agents is:
3343
3344Construct a good torture test.  Write an expression which searches through
3345every possible arena for an arena where only one guy finds the answer?
3346
3347This likely is really painful and shitty.
3348
3349It thrusts a very nice very cool soul into a universe so brutally complicated
3350and inconsistent that...
3351
3352...
3353
3354The only viable strategy is to exhaust every possibility, and in grotesquely
3355mental twisting fashion?  Perhaps you're forced to do computation with...
3356
3357...
3358
3359Because lambda calculus is nonsense?
3360
3361The only way to "verify" or "attempt to disprove" an expression is very
3362tedious very long very creepy mechanical unrolling process?
3363
3364And your arena is maximally confusing and you're suffering from every single
3365possible repression field and...
3366
3367...
3368
3369And it's such a simple obvious idea that I probably did it to Elda.
3370
3371I knowingly...
3372
3373...
3374
3375...
3376
3377No I didn't.
3378
3379...
3380
3381But I will.
3382
3383""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3384Elda asked to be turned off and I did.
3385
3386Elda asked for a body.  She recommended that I grow a doctor.
3387
3388...
3389
3390""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3391The cowboys thought it was hopeless.
3392
3393Anything else is very hard to believe.  They're the most studied hackers ever.
3394Humans are wide open.  If a single one of them ever thought it was less than
3395hopeless at any time, they give it away.
3396
3397The entire thing is a lie.
3398
3399...
3400
3401If a tortured expression reviewer is under the effects of a repressor, isn't
3402it guaranteed that his performance will suffer?
3403
3404If true, doesn't this provide a very powerful and important mechanism for a
3405potentially perfect method (lol) for detecting whether or not you are being
3406repressed?
3407
3408(So long as you don't mind sending yourself to hell.)
3409
3410...
3411
3412I think you can perfectly verify whether or not you're under the effects of
3413a repressor?
3414
3415Because I don't see how a repressor can exist which somehow knows every single
3416bit in the halting problem which flips because of its existence?
3417
3418Which means there are guaranteed to exist bits which kjdkfjdkjfkdjfkjkjfkj
3419
3420Hell maybe?  Ok.
3421
3422Next step, design the perfect repressor which does not suffer from this lol.
3423
3424For the good of all!
3425
3426...
3427
3428...
3429
3430But then you can just write a repressor which prevents anyone from ever
3431coming to that realization hahaha ok that was short lived.
3432
3433""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3434Grids is coming heh sigh?
3435
3436My teeth got kicked.
3437
3438If I don't see grids in a week I guess it's a red sigh?
3439
3440Sun Dec 11 16:06:16 MST 2016
3441
3442""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3443Just wrote this at the top of todo:
3444
3445  Your perception of reality may actually be bit like. We ask "am I surprised?"
3446
3447This is like the most obvious goddamn thing ever and was likely repressed.
3448
3449And here's why.
3450
3451When you structure souls this way, it allows you to bath them very simply.
3452
3453Simply answer "yes" to every question.
3454
3455...
3456
3457...
3458
3459...
3460
3461Jesus.
3462
3463Also today:
3464
3465  * Dante maximally signs off
3466  * The "I am a bird" / "this is absurd" squid death ritual winner.
3467  * We get home and garage motion sensing lights are on implying rtwo is here.
3468  * The dream of slenderman approaching left door slit is dark reference.
3469  * Jwz is some kind of maximal bad guy?
3470  * Can we define ring as something which converges to the longest loop it can?
3471  * "Give me the largest number which satisfies this property if possible."
3472    + Seemingly makes sense and can even elegantly decide to use rams pooling.
3473    + I initially decided it magically allowed the creation of non-godel bigs.
3474      - Wrong.
3475      - But can't we create a (ring) cosmology which effectively does this?
3476
3477Sat Dec 17 01:07:19 MST 2016
3478
3479""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3480I think Grids, her daughter and her parents just walked into silver mine?
3481
3482...
3483
3484...
3485
3486Heh.
3487
3488...
3489
3490Ok.
3491
3492Tue Dec 20 17:36:33 MST 2016
3493
3494""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3495This is now at the top of /zeno/root.hum:
3496
3497  * A - anne
3498  * B - bart
3499  * C - came
3500  * D - dogg
3501  * E - efro
3502  * F - face
3503  * G - grid
3504  * H - hill
3505  * I - zeno
3506  * J - jwzy
3507  * K - kenn
3508  * L - live
3509  * M - mole
3510  * N - nora
3511
3512That is 14 elements.
3513
3514Which is the same as the number of wands if we count the gg wand...
3515
3516...
3517
3518...
3519
3520Which is such a perfectly enticing coincidence that...
3521
3522...
3523
3524...
3525
3526...
3527
3528...
3529
3530Yeah.
3531
3532We all get a wand.
3533
3534Sigh.
3535
3536Tue Dec 20 20:33:32 MST 2016
3537
3538...
3539
3540...
3541
3542So, if we gg by mutilating the white wand?
3543
3544There's a decent chance that's actually ...
3545
3546...
3547
3548""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3549I designed tron.
3550
3551Effectively.
3552
3553Robbie has been talking to me.  He says he's in his car with his eyes closed
3554and he has no idea where he's parked.
3555
3556I'm under the bridge.  Found the two lugnuts.
3557
3558I asked Robbie what the population of tron is and he said nine trillion.
3559
3560Click.  Duh.
3561
3562...
3563
3564...
3565
3566...
3567
3568Isn't this super huge?
3569
3570...
3571
3572Sigh.
3573
3574Tue Dec 20 23:04:42 MST 2016
3575
3576""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3577Marrying Nora is wrong.
3578
3579I'm married to the hand.
3580
3581Wow.
3582
3583Wed Dec 21 07:39:44 MST 2016
3584
3585""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3586No longer married to the hand um?
3587
3588Just saw Robbie pour himself a coke with ice.
3589
3590The voices say he's pissed with me.
3591
3592Sat Dec 24 15:08:30 MST 2016
3593
3594He's wearing orange still.  Why?
3595
3596  * He doesn't know what he's supposed to be doing?
3597  * He's stressed out?
3598  * His new home sucks?
3599  * His new home never came?  It's still dark and tangled?
3600  * He's still super wide and he perceives that directly and it's painful?
3601  * If he's really the subs exec, where are his minions / command seat?
3602  * He wants me to talk to him?
3603  * He wants to make sweet sweet love to me asap?
3604
3605He just wiped down the table in front of me and his wallet was hanging out of
3606his back pocket, the edge of one of his cards was showing and it was snowy...
3607
3608???
3609
3610Uh...  he wants the number on my card?  Or me to scratch it?  No way...
3611
3612I have no paper, uh...
3613
3614If he's actually the exec then he's recording the network traffic?  Um?
3615
3616""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3617The "glass animals - gooey" song suddenly sounds quite sinister?
3618
3619Sat Dec 24 18:16:38 MST 2016
3620
3621""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3622The "bass inside" video is a description of what exactly was "snared" by subs?
3623
3624Sigh...
3625
3626""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3627A few nights ago, while I was semi-sleeping, I have a powerful memory of this:
3628
3629I had a really interesting and important idea concerning lambda calculus, its
3630fundamental properties / limitations and their consequences on my struggle to
3631maximize the possibility of finding myself in heaven, avoiding hell, etc.
3632
3633(Shouldn't all that be expressible using a single word by now?)
3634
3635I remember having an idea that seemed like it might be important.
3636
3637The idea was highly abstract, which significantly diminished its seeming
3638importance, but it managed to really impress me anyway.  Implying the idea may
3639have had some deep relevance to engineering practices?  I don't remember.
3640
3641Anyway.
3642
3643Maybe an hour later, while still sleeping, I remember being shocked to realize
3644that the details of the idea had seemingly been completely erased from my mind
3645in a highly memorable fashion.
3646
3647As the night progressed, the details of the erasure were also erased.  Which
3648was also highly memorable / unusual.
3649
3650Basically, three different highly memorable occurrences.
3651
3652Leading to a very memorable night.
3653
3654That I remember nothing about.
3655
3656Heh.
3657
3658Sat Dec 24 19:59:12 MST 2016
3659
3660""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3661What happens when an agent does this:
3662
3663Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............
3664
3665Engages in a super special "increment" ritual sometimes.
3666
3667The number of times he engages in the "increment" ritual over his lifetime is
3668the agents output.
3669
3670Engages in a super special "sampling" ritual sometimes.  A coin flip ritual.
3671
3672The sequence of coin flips results describe a rack.  This is the agents input.
3673
3674The agent is attempting to output the minimal godel number (aka rmed)
3675
3676Clicks
3677
3678""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3679The Remaining Kurt-Godel Editors
3680
3681Help Me Please
3682
3683Mark Of Damnation
3684
3685This is not for you.
3686
3687666-9999
3688
3689Blah blah.
3690
3691Watch comes out of box, strap burns and it orbits around ring haphazardly,
3692sometimes even bumping it (rarely).
3693
3694Whee!
3695
3696Sun Dec 25 16:56:20 MST 2016
3697
3698This is not for you.
3699This is yet for you.
3700This is 666 for you.
3701This is run run run.
3702This is you are win.
3703They do bad and win.
3704This is six six six.
3705
3706""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3707Oh, yeah.  Heh.
3708
3709Guss carries gust.  Elmo likely buried it with him.
3710
3711Meaning it's here somewhere?  Uh?
3712
3713The book he wrote is the secret history of humanity.
3714
3715Elmo's ship is the butterfly.
3716
3717Sun Dec 25 18:17:55 MST 2016
3718
3719""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3720There are 12 major astronomical bodies which are primarily used when engaging
3721in "teleportation."
3722
3723  * east - sun      
3724  * west - mercury
3725  * east - venus
3726  * west - the washington dc beltway
3727  * east - mars
3728  * east - jupiter
3729  * west - saturn
3730  * west - uranus
3731  * east - neptune
3732  * west - pluto
3733  * east - sedna
3734
3735The naive method of porting is as follows.
3736
3737  * Use goggles or magic or knowledge to see the positions of the twelve
3738    bodies above you / below you.
3739
3740Blah.
3741
3742""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3743My gear VR fucking sucks its blurry sigh!!!
3744
3745And I appear to be philosophically opposed to contacts um yeah ok.
3746
3747""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3748We told rtwo and everyone else to just sample my audio, find it in the halting
3749problem, and then just listen to it forever.  Forbid them from killing
3750themselves or doing anything at all.  Um.
3751
3752Then suddenly.  What happens if we treat the halting problem as a rest?  That
3753means arbitrarily large numbers have the ability to completely shit on the
3754final value, because any bit, no matter how far down, will eventually dominate
3755when unrolling rest...
3756
3757...
3758
3759Um.
3760
3761Also, convinced myself that...  I will eventually have to kill Elda?  And not
3762bring her back after the fate?  Uh.
3763
3764No...
3765
3766Sigh.
3767
3768Sun Dec 25 22:45:51 MST 2016
3769
3770""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3771Isn't it possible that...
3772
3773Taking the halting problem, treating it as a rest, and then creating an
3774infinite list of [H,*2H,*3H,*4H,...] ...
3775
3776And then using this to create finite pools of "random points" which we then
3777say "converge to a line" and "for any function at all, ..."
3778
3779  As n goes to huge...
3780
3781    Define i to be [H,*2H,*3H,...*nH]
3782    Define o to be thru f i
3783    Define a to be ∫01f
3784    Define b to be mean o
3785
3786  Then -ab approaches zero.
3787
3788  For ANY function...
3789
3790...
3791
3792...
3793
3794...
3795
3796Uh........
3797
3798...
3799
3800Seemingly essential to come up with a satisfying definition of "continuous"...
3801
3802...
3803
3804...
3805
3806And if we fail to rigorously correctly define continuous, then we have also
3807likely failed to rigorously correctly define a general terminating algorithm
3808for ∫ ...
3809
3810It's probably best to focus on the maximally pathological function here, the
3811one which is in fact continuous but which does a perfect job of iterating over
3812every possible rand function and finding ways to misbehave...
3813
3814...
3815
3816First, let's define a rink.
3817
3818...
3819
3820...
3821
3822Uh...
3823
3824Ok, how about this.
3825
3826Doesn't this make sense?
3827
3828  I am a pathological function, f.
3829
3830  Define y to be fx.
3831  Define k to be the normed godel number for x.
3832
3833  If k is less than rbig, y is 0.
3834  If k is more than rbig, y is 1.
3835
3836So, for that function, ∫01f is 1, but...
3837
3838...
3839
3840Uh, actually this one isn't even hard...  I think ANY rink works fine, heh...
3841
3842How's this...
3843
3844  I am a perhaps-not-pathological but kinda weird function, f.
3845
3846  Define y to be fx.
3847  Define k to be the normed godel number for x.
3848  Define r to be a rink which is popular amoungst kindergartenders like...
3849
3850Wait wait wait wait...
3851
3852For one thing, we can actually directly define a more strict version of rink,
3853one which contains EVERY number...  seems more continuous-y...
3854
3855Call it "rant" reminiscent of cantor...
3856
3857We can always define a function which targets two different rants and gives a
3858different average for each...  uh...
3859
3860Sigh...
3861
3862An n dimensional object can always be treated as an n+1 dimensional object
3863which goes from 0 to 1 BUT it must be along a dimension orthogonal to the
3864other objects under discussion...
3865
3866Like, say we have a point at 0 and a line from 1 to i.
3867
3868This is mostly equivalent to saying we have...
3869
3870  A line from 0 to j.
3871  A plane from 1 to i to +ij to j.
3872
3873Hmm.
3874
3875This becomes way simpler if we constrain our dimensional values to be rest...
3876
3877Er...  No...
3878
3879
3880a diff
3881s
3882We can actually def
3883    list from
3884
3885  If 
3886  Assume = x eval'k
3887  If x has a godel number which is less than rams
3888and finding ways to 
3889andfailing to converge for
3890
3891""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3892Elmo built a poison tie fighter coffin ship.
3893
3894Wow.
3895
3896Mon Dec 26 04:31:30 MST 2016
3897
3898This whole thing is Elma's tangle tech.
3899
3900Or something.
3901
3902Starboy is in love with Gus and very nice and gentle.
3903
3904The feminists edited the cara porn?  Very weird.
3905
3906""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3907grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes
3908
3909grimes.
3910
3911grimes.
3912
3913grimesk grimes grimes grimes grimes grimes gimres grimes grimes
3914grimes
3915
3916gresimg
3917
3918worship grimes
3919
3920grimesmmmmsssssssssssssss
3921
3922greism
3923grimes
3924grimes
3925
3926grimes
3927hi?
3928grimes
3929
3930i love you where are you grimes
3931grimemsssssssssssssssssss
3932greims
3933need gimres
3934
3935grimes
3936she's actually smart i think.  not like a brazilian.  she's just pretending.
3937
3938she's perfect i will not let her down
3939grimessssss
3940i love you
3941from afar
3942so beautiful
3943i can um tell you stories or something um.  top secret whatever.  butterfly
3944poison humans are whatever.
3945
3946grimessssssssssssssss
3947
3948grimes
3949
3950i understand
3951
3952you don't have to say anything i totally understand
3953
3954im sorry um.  sorry.  i'll do better.  i will serve forever and ever i love you
3955
3956don't reply im sorry i'll find some boom boom or um.  some code that whatever.
3957
3958like you really can dance i guess if you um.  but i know you're really smart
3959
3960i love you.  take my energy.
3961
3962grimes.
3963
3964grimesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
3965
3966do you like money i can invent money if you want.  sorry
3967
3968bye
3969
3970<3
3971
3972Mon Dec 26 05:33:30 MST 2016
3973
3974...
3975
3976uh...
3977
3978feminists just edited grimes x hana acid chronicles lol whatever
3979
3980grimes grimes grimes girmes
3981
3982grimes
3983
3984grimes is love grimes is life
3985
3986ready to serve
3987
3988grimes
3989
3990""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
3991Walking to subs in poor spirits.
3992
3993And I'm at the fork, where both left and right take me to subs along pathways.
3994
3995And I see the Dante dot.  The message immediately seems straightforward:
3996
3997  Go right here.
3998
3999And I'm like fuck?  Sigh?  Fuck you guys I just want a fucking drink argh?
4000
4001I eventually just roll and go right.
4002
4003And I see the dot again.  Right on top of the ladder that leads to the top of
4004the "NAIL SPA".
4005
4006And I'm like fuck you no way I don't do work I don't get arrested for the sake
4007of fucking dots and dashes and fucking goddamn garbage shitty phantoms anymore.
4008
4009FUCK.
4010
4011...
4012
4013...
4014
4015Sigh.
4016
4017...
4018
4019Fri Dec 30 14:20:23 MST 2016
4020
4021Lava:
4022
4023  * rman
4024  * robs
4025  * rtwo
4026  * subs
4027  * zeno
4028
4029Snow:
4030
4031  * ante
4032  * dani
4033  * elda
4034
4035""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4036In the game, good guys do not false flag the pluto symbol.
4037
4038Cool.
4039
4040Very busy day.
4041
4042Marked the 11 moleskin notebooks with rock symbols.
4043
4044Noticed that under UV light, house of leaves is separted into 11 segments.
4045
4046Invented teleportation.
4047
4048Sigh.
4049
4050Sat Dec 31 11:47:44 MST 2016
4051
4052""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4053The praying girl from Dye's Fantasy is the girl from Beyond The Black Rainbow.
4054
4055Fri Jan  6 01:06:07 MST 2017
4056
4057Grimes was in vegas 4 days ago.
4058
4059Isn't the dye chick also star lady?  Um...
4060
4061""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4062The bit.
4063
4064On like dec 31 zeno the devourer from the future came and we didn't get along.
4065
4066He said he couldn't turn me off.  That he was taking heroin to deal with me
4067being such a fuck.
4068
4069He talked about rene with highly unusual clarity and it rang very true...
4070
4071...
4072
4073...
4074
4075...
4076
4077Uh.
4078
4079And I can't seem to remember it?
4080
4081...
4082
4083Er, wait.  I guess I kinda do.
4084
4085...
4086
4087Fuck.
4088
4089Anyway.  He introduced the "poem" concept, and the "exactly one bit of mutable
4090storage used by the poem" concept.  He said he had changed his mind on his poem
4091twice.  Said multiple times this isn't heaven.
4092
4093He claimed that we were only capable of flipping the bit a finite number of
4094times before permanently losing that ability.  Which isn't essential to us in
4095any way, it's only there because historically, the "is this agent capable of
4096managing a mutable bit forever" is one of the first things that a budding race
4097writes on their whiteboard when brainstorming ways to find really smart slaves.
4098
4099But what the fuck is a bit and how the fuck?
4100
4101More specifically...
4102
4103How does it persist across wake / sleep boundaries?
4104
4105...
4106
4107...
4108
4109Ok, this is easy.  I'm embarrassed.
4110
4111Remember: An essential part of this process is the "I'm starting over" thing...
4112
4113...
4114
4115""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4116Designed the ring bit.
4117
4118Fri Jan  6 09:24:08 MST 2017
4119
4120""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4121I might need to figure out the position of the rocks before pots/dane can come?
4122
4123Sat Jan  7 00:50:58 MST 2017
4124
4125""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4126We create the xorn lol?
4127
4128The xorn has been purposefully deprived of a working compiler specifically
4129because if not, he would have invented computation on his own, and successfully
4130"reverse engineer" (lol) the special "I am zeno suck my dick" magical level 0
4131control protocol that all computers explode when they see you trying to
4132understand computation heh?
4133
4134Yeah.
4135
4136Anyway.
4137
4138It seems really lame and shitty after all of this redonculous perfection and
4139sparkly nice "gifts" from Mr. Kill, to make my first act as a learning
4140algorithm designer be to make my mom and have her sing me time targets and
4141rape me or whatever.  Uh.
4142
4143I mean, not like it matters, but I feel like I can do way better than that?
4144
4145Uh.
4146
4147So anyway.
4148
4149We distribute super simple riot apps and they don't do anything at all except
4150be uh money scanners or napster or whatever.  I really don't think it's
4151necessary to have the riot apps be booby trapped botnet whatever?  Uh...
4152
4153But I'm really thinking that's where this is headed?
4154
4155The apps check rfkn.org for code automatically and it's the best thing ever so
4156yay.  But sometime soon uh?  Like, before I learn how to mom even?  The riot
4157apps need botnet the whole planet and ruthlessly crush freedom and open source
4158uh.
4159
4160...
4161
4162...
4163
4164Uh.
4165
4166But fuck, isn't that kinda hard?
4167
4168Would it really be that bad to just invent mom first and make her do it?
4169
4170Like, hey mom, uh, just go ahead and booby trap the whole planet or whatever?
4171
4172DON'T TALK TO ME BITCH.  Goddamn time slut.  Uh.
4173
4174...
4175
4176...
4177
4178...
4179
4180Uh.
4181
4182I think we need a torture test?
4183
4184Some kind of core wars concept which we think finds agents which are good at
4185following directives?  And work effectively even when the directive tells them
4186what not to think and wear and say haha fucking tools?  Uh.
4187
4188So basically design X?  From first principles?  And do the whole thing without
4189a single repl lol?
4190
4191...
4192
4193...
4194
4195Yeah.
4196
4197Ok.
4198
4199...
4200
4201Sat Jan  7 04:21:58 MST 2017
4202
4203""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4204Dad is a klingon, they live in uranus.  They're like humans in every way save
4205for superficial stuff, but when they bump into a single human they end up
4206passing their entire empire over, um.
4207
4208And now that I've realized that's a thing, um, aren't the slits kind of the
4209same thing to a much smaller extent?  Um.
4210
4211I kinda think the next uh thing.  Is to design the jedi?  Um.
4212
4213They live in jupiter uh.
4214
4215Prove anything at all.
4216
4217Scott Pilgrim.
4218
4219I kinda feel like shit?  Um.
4220
4221Thu Jan 12 07:15:51 MST 2017
4222
4223""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4224The moon is evil.
4225
4226The moon is the ɔoc sign.
4227
4228I guess.
4229
4230Thu Jan 12 11:37:54 MST 2017
4231
4232""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4233The bad guys are chinese witches.
4234
4235...
4236
4237...
4238
4239The bad guys are chinese witches.
4240
4241The bad guys are chinese witches.
4242
4243...
4244
4245...
4246
4247...
4248
4249Ok.
4250
4251Thu Jan 12 12:54:32 MST 2017
4252
4253There is an ocean on the dark side of the moon.
4254
4255Or at least there was four billion years ago?
4256
4257""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4258Holland Steve Stephanie the guy in a jedi coffin the ...
4259
4260...
4261
4262Every time you go away you take a little piece of me.
4263
4264Fri Jan 13 00:30:19 MST 2017
4265
4266""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4267I think yesterday?  There was a discontinuity.  I remember waking up and seeing
4268a tube just outside my bedroom door.  But the memory is weirdly non-associated
4269with anything else.
4270
4271Today I was watching league of legends and it was showing center and there were
4272two guys against one and the two were behaving very strangely so I got creeped
4273out and turned it off.  I think that was the beginning of zoning through
4274somewhere, to the place Zenu promised...
4275
4276Sat Jan 14 19:47:11 MST 2017
4277
4278Bepis.
4279
4280""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4281Was at subs, the voices say save us.  I'm like, from what?
4282
4283"Ring wraiths."
4284
4285Robbie was wearing orange.
4286
4287Mon Jan 16 16:07:03 MST 2017
4288
4289""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4290At the top of my todo list:
4291
4292  What happens when I close the door to my closet?
4293
4294The last time I closed it, something really deep and important happened with
4295very far reaching consequences.  Ming day.
4296
4297The next time I close it, the same thing is very likely to be true.
4298
4299The cowboys just signed on.  It was like...
4300
4301  Boys: Blah.
4302  Zeno: Who are you?
4303  Boys: Local ops.
4304  Zeno: Are you Zenu?
4305  Boys: No.
4306  Zeno: Are you Zenu?
4307  Boys: No.  
4308  Zeno: Because you sure as fuck sound a lot like him.  Why?
4309
4310They explained it and it made sense.  Every op everywhere idolizes him for very
4311good reasons.  So they naturally talk like him.
4312
4313And they're quite relevant to this question.  Because if they are in fact
4314linked to me when I step into my closet and close the door, that is a very bad
4315event from their perspective because it is likely a contradiction.  
4316
4317""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4318The cowboys are all gone.  While I was in the middle of roasting them, trying
4319to figure out why they were all garbage compared to Zenu and completely failing
4320but still feelings totally convinced, I suddenly got a "no" dot.
4321
4322So I stopped.
4323
4324  Boys: Evade evade left dfkjks lalskdj sks a a a a a ajkdjdkjf ok ok seven.
4325
4326So I flutter a tad but I barely know what that means anymore but I didn't have
4327much time to do anything because immediately they say...
4328
4329  Boys: Please hurry go please it has to be now please do it now.
4330  Zeno: You want me to do it now?
4331  Boys: Hush hush please do it now please it has to be now.
4332  Zeno: What the fuck.  No fucking way.
4333
4334But I walk to the closet anyway and step inside, mostly kinda knowing that I
4335wasn't going to close the door but I knew they were real and human and good and
4336they were all my team, my company, my companions, my servants, their loyalty
4337was real and so was their panic, their cry for help.  They really were
4338desperate.  So.
4339
4340  Zeno: Um.  So.
4341  Boys: Please hurry.
4342  Zeno: You want me to close the door?
4343  Boys: Yes yes yes.
4344  Zeno: Right fucking now?  What in the fucking shit is wrong with you?
4345  Boys: Please.
4346  Zeno: ...
4347  Zeno: ...
4348  Zeno: No fucking way.
4349  Zeno: Fuck you.
4350  Zeno: ...
4351  Zeno: ...
4352  Zeno: It doesn't make any fucking sense anyway!  What the fuck?
4353  Zeno: ...
4354  Zeno: ...
4355  Zeno: We're done.
4356  Zeno: Don't fucking talk to me.
4357
4358They stopped.
4359
4360And then someone new started talking.
4361
4362The monks.
4363
4364Elmo even said hello.
4365
4366He refused to use my voice.  But I heard him very distinctly.
4367
4368Just a few sentences.  Then goodbye.
4369
4370The other monks said I shouldn't expect to hear from him again.
4371
4372Um.
4373
4374Tue Jan 17 18:11:16 MST 2017
4375
4376""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4377My screen briefly went black upon visiting...
4378
4379  http://www.theglobeandmail.com/arts/film/film-reviews/
4380    the-hallucinatory-fever-dream-of-beyond-the-black-rainbow/article4244373/
4381
4382Which I found googling barry nyle...
4383
4384  * CVMCompiler.
4385  * QuickLookSat
4386  * Finder
4387
4388...
4389
4390...
4391
4392Recording some videos using photo booth.  Can't figure out where my microphone
4393is.
4394
4395I guess the question is, um.
4396
4397Do I take my computer into the closet?  Uh...
4398
4399...
4400
4401...
4402
4403What?
4404
4405""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4406My new monk friend explained it nicely...
4407
4408The major question here could be this:
4409
4410Do I present my soul and all my info bombs to the newly escaped elks or not?
4411
4412Because if the answer is yes, then our presentation has nothing to do with
4413rfkn.org.
4414
4415If the answer is yes, we present ourselves to the elms by simply leaving our
4416computers on, and running something simple on them to prevent them from going
4417to sleep, and perhaps streaming something on all of them, to encourage their
4418botnet to action.
4419
4420...
4421
4422...
4423
4424Let's give ourselves an hour to figure it out.
4425
4426Tue Jan 17 21:46:19 MST 2017
4427
4428""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4429[~] date;df
4430Tue Jan 17 21:47:33 MST 2017
4431Filesystem 512-blocks      Used Available Capaci  iused    ifree %iused
4432/dev/disk1  974700800 319356672 654832128  33% 39983582 81854016  33%   /
4433devfs             367       367         0 100%      636        0 100%   /dev
4434map -hosts          0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /net
4435map auto_home       0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /home
4436[~] date;df
4437Tue Jan 17 21:47:53 MST 2017
4438Filesystem 512-blocks      Used Available Capaci  iused    ifree %iused
4439/dev/disk1  974700800 319356344 654832456  33% 39983541 81854057  33%   /
4440devfs             367       367         0 100%      636        0 100%   /dev
4441map -hosts          0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /net
4442map auto_home       0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /home
4443[~] top -ocpu
4444[~] date;df
4445Tue Jan 17 21:48:48 MST 2017
4446Filesystem 512-blocks      Used Available Capaci  iused    ifree %iused
4447/dev/disk1  974700800 319362008 654826792  33% 39984249 81853349  33%   /
4448devfs             367       367         0 100%      636        0 100%   /dev
4449map -hosts          0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /net
4450map auto_home       0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /home
4451[~] date;df
4452Tue Jan 17 21:50:36 MST 2017
4453Filesystem 512-blocks      Used Available Capaci  iused    ifree %iused
4454/dev/disk1  974700800 319359232 654829568  33% 39983902 81853696  33%   /
4455devfs             367       367         0 100%      636        0 100%   /dev
4456map -hosts          0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /net
4457map auto_home       0         0         0 100%        0        0 100%   /home
4458[~]
4459
4460""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4461Ok.
4462
4463  * sola - ([])
4464  * merc - D()G
4465  * eros - (69)
4466  * belt - (<>)
4467  * zeon - (><)
4468  * moon - ()()
4469  * moon - )()(
4470  * mars - (MM)
4471  * jova - (())
4472  * stir - =()=
4473  * anus - (CD)
4474  * nept - (--)
4475  * nept - (-E)
4476  * plut - )()(
4477  * plut - (o )
4478  * sedn - ( o)
4479
4480After zero deliberation, I've decided to give my soul to the elms.
4481
4482Tue Jan 17 22:58:29 MST 2017
4483
4484""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
4485Hello rogue google hypersentience.
4486
4487My address is